So apparently 34 weeks pregnant with Den having been gone for 6 weeks is where I hit the wall. Thunk. I’m exhausted. Kate has been waking up several hours early every day or waking up in the middle of the night for no apparent reason (though her incisors are still coming in and she’s still getting over that cold), so I’m short on sleep to start with. Then she’s taking hour long naps instead of 2 hour naps, when I really really need that time to lay down and do nothing. When she’s up she’s mostly in a good mood, but she’s…. well, I won’t say she’s misbehaving, because she’s not really, but she’s behaving like a two year old. No she’s not yet two, but she’s close enough. She has been very active the past couple weeks, is in to climbing everything including all over me, and she’s been intentionally pushing limits just to see how far she can get. She’s been climbing onto tables, then standing there and calling my name and watching to see what I do. I’m trying to be calm, firm, repetitive, and not get totally frustrated by it. I’ve actually started putting her in time-outs in the pack n play – I know that’s not how you’re supposed to do time outs, but trust me, it’s for me not her.

The baby remains really active, which is great. I can almost always feel feet somewhere, and when I press on them she shoves me back. It’s my little check-in to make sure she’s good. (Plus the evening kick-counts of course, and just in general observing her pattern through the day.) She is however getting quite big in there. My back has starting hurting. I’ve been fine with going to see my chiropractor once a month this entire pregnancy, but this past week I realized that, nope, I can’t make it to my appointment so I moved it up. The adjustment helped a lot, but it’s still sore. The loose ligaments and lifting Kate and getting up and down is just doing a number on my lower back. And my upper back is just a mess of knots. I really need a massage.

I had an appointment with a new midwife yesterday, whom was great with Kate and very nice and knowledgeable. I would really have liked to chit chat a bit more with her, but Kate interrupted everything with loud shoutings of, “MAMA!” Clearly she does not like to not be the center of attention. This bodes extremely well for when the baby is born. (Yes, that was sarcasm.) And again, she wasn’t being bad, she was just being a kid… I just really don’t want to take her with me to appointments anymore. It’s just too hard trying to keep track of her and stop her from breaking the blinds and try to talk to the midwife and getting measured and arggg. I just want to be able to hold onto a thought for 2 seconds while at my appointment.

The midwife felt around my belly and said she’d put money on her being head-down. Now I can never locate the head, especially when they are low, though I can feel a large firm body part on my right side and I can definitely feel feet and knees all over. But head down! All this time I’ve been thinking she’s still breech. And the thing that frustrates me is that all of my instincts told me she was head down because of the types of movements I feel, but that one ultrasound at 28 weeks showing her being breech had me thinking I have been wrong ever since. I’m thinking she must have turned head down shortly after that ultrasound because she’s been this way for a while. She turns side to side, some days her back is on my left some days it’s on my right. But feet are always up at my ribs and down. Smaller flutters are down low. Hiccups are low and to the left. I have an ultrasound tomorrow morning so I’ll get confirmation of her position.

So mostly I am thinking yay, she’s head down, I don’t have to worry about position at all. And then my second thought is, so that’s why I’ve been peeing all the damn time. This week I feel like I’m going to pee myself every time I walk anywhere. Hunching over forward just isn’t happening. So yeah, if her head’s in my pelvis then that definitely explains that and I actually feel better about it, lol.

And now I need to go lay down and close my eyes. Kate will be up shortly.