I just wanted to say that I’m feeling much better today. Productive. Organized. In control. The baby thing I’m just not thinking about much. It helps that Den’s so far away – no pressure this month. In a way it’s a bad thing, that’s probably what sparked the freak out yesterday – too much time to analyse and over-analyse everything. And maybe my obsessive cleaning streak today has something to do with it, an attempt to prove to myself that I CAN do this, that I can keep my home in order and clean and livable. I’m getting there. It still needs work though – and I’m not even touching the bedroom until hubby gets home. But in the shape the kitchen and living room is in? With a few minor adjustments (like a dishwasher) I could handle a baby in all of this. I’m still not sure about putting a baby on the floor, though. I may have to build some kind of platform – even a few inches off the ground is enough to keep the fur from drifting onto it. But then platform + baby = risk of falling. Sigh. Eh, I dunno. I honestly miss being able to lay on my own floors, yes indeed. Hopefully by then we’ll be in a position to get an area rug.

Anyways, I’m rambling. I’m feeling much better now. That was my point.