It’s been three days of stims and I’m starting to feel my ovaries. Not a lot, but just… I feel slight pressure starting. That makes me nervous, with my history. It’s probably all perfectly normal, but the worry is there. Wednesday is my first ultrasound and I’m really wishing it was tomorrow instead. But at the same time, if I’m overstimming now I don’t think there’s anything they can do about it.

I mentioned this all to my acupuncturist today so she said she was going to aim not at helping me stim, but at calming everything down and bringing it all in balance, reigning it in. Which is good, very good. We chit-chatted a little about my cycle and such – I was in a chatty mood apparently. I feel like I’m getting to know her a little bit, I’m able to read her a little better, to joke a little and relax. I was thinking, maybe I did choose the right acupuncturist after all. She added some new ear points today, which buzzed funny at first, just like my first ear points did at my first appointment. Funny enough that doesn’t happen anymore. And actually the ear points are the ones that make me feel heavy and very tuned-in to my body.

One funny moment during my appointment. She uses this heat lamp thing over my belly to keep me warm (because my feet and belly are exposed, and I can get chilly really easily.) She extended the arm it’s on so that it was way above me, just enough warmth that I feel comfortable. So I had my eyes closed and my mind is going this way and that, I’m kind of drifting off. In my little half-dreams my face feels warm. I’m thinking about how my belly was warm, now I’m feeling a little chilly… but my face is feeling warm. In fact, it feels like…. hmmm… I open my eyes and startled, there’s the heat lamp right over my damn boobs, almost above my head. The stupid thing was slooowwwlllyy swinging around – I’d push it down, it swung back up. She ended up coming in and fixing it. But I still get a giggle thinking about opening my eyes to find the heat lamp right over my head!

I also asked her about the massage therapists she’ll be sharing her new office with, and it turns out she does have a history with them and says they are really wonderful. She also gave me a discount card last week so I think I’m going to call and make an appointment. The female massage therapist is out for the week, so I might just try the male. I know, scary. I don’t know why I lean towards a female massage therapist when I obviously don’t care about male or female doctors, OBs, REs, whatever. I guess it’s the whole touching thing. Looking up my hoo-ha is one thing, but touching my back, dude, now that’s a little intimate. (Snort.)

She scheduled me to see her on Saturday, we want to make sure I get in one more time before retrieval. I work Saturdays until noon, and she normally only works Saturday mornings but she’s going to see me at 12:30. She also said that if I get any symptoms of OHSS, even minor, before transfer, then I need to call her cell and she’ll see me immediately. Want to make sure my body is nice and calm and balanced before transfer. She says she’s at the beck and call of my ovaries. LOL I like her, I like that she’s willing to work around what my cycle gives me. IVF is anything but predictable. And I’m really glad i started seeing her 2 months ago, so that she and I have a nice relationship by the time we’re at the big stuff.

Honestly I think I’m going to be disappointed when the cycle is over and I’m not going for weekly acupuncture anymore! Now that’s something I never thought I’d say.