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Transfer!

June 9, 2009 — 2:45 pm

I am PUPO!! (Pregnant Until Proven Otherwise) I have an embryo nestled safe inside.

I woke up in the middle of the night, anxious. I distracted myself online until I could fall asleep again. Then this morning the anxiety returned… I was starting to think that maybe taking the valium in the morning would be more beneficial than taking it right before transfer, lol. I had a ton of things to do before my appointment, so I just was zipping around town checking them off my list one after another. I was glancing at the clock all morning, checking to see how much time I had left. As the time ticked by without a noise from my cell phone I slowly started to relax.

When we got to the hospital and checked in I felt a good half of the tension melt away – I mean, they wouldn’t have us suit up if there was no embryo, right? But as we waited and waited for the doctor to arrive I started worrying again. I wished the valium would kick in better.

But everyone greeted me happily and exclaimed over Sheepie. Finally I was wheeled into the IVF OR – with Sheepie! Yes, they let me bring him in with me! Den sat to my right, Sheepie was clutched to my chest, warm blankets enveloped me. Abdominal ultrasound (with warm gel!), speculum, catheter… catheter…. ummm, catheter does not want to go in. They got a different catheter, one that would bend better, they said. Whew no problems with that one.

Lab tech came in and gave us the report card. One blastocyst thawed, 1 blastocyst survived thaw, 0 embryos left in freezer. Before we knew it the little embryo was put in, an ultrasound pic was printed off for me, and I was wheeled back to my alcove for a mini nap (30 minutes laying down).

As I layed there I felt this rush of excitement and glee and relief flood me… all of that emotion I’ve been holding at bay for weeks, too nervous to experience it. But now we know it’s alive, and it’s safe back in me.

We have a long ways to go, emotionally and physically, before “pregnant”… but right now I’m just savoring this one small accomplishment.

38 responses to “Transfer!”

  1. Jen says:

    So, so wonderful – I have tears of joy for you sweety.

  2. Delenn says:

    Wishing you stickiness!

  3. N says:

    I’m so excited for you! And hoping beyond hope that the third (embryo from this IVF) is the charm.

  4. Maria says:

    That’s wonderful!! :)

    Stick beanie stick…stick stick STICK!!

  5. Peaches says:

    I’ve been following your blog and I just wanted to send some baby dust your way. I hope this is finally your time! You deserve some good luck.

  6. SS says:

    Congratulations on a successful transfer natalie!

  7. Kari says:

    I had to check your blog from work to see how the transfer went! Here’s hoping that embryo settles in and sticks around for a nice, normal, healthy nine months. And you’re just adorable in the pitures.

  8. Lisa DG says:

    Crossing fingers and ready to celebrate – Mainly, I am holding your dream for you, in case the next couple of weeks get hard for you.

  9. Gina says:

    I hope the embrio finds a nice comfy spot and stays put for the next 40 weeks!! ;)

    Good luck Nat,Im SO hoping this is it for you.

  10. Myndi says:

    Congrats on the embie surviving the thaw! That seems like a great sign. Good luck, and relax as much as is feasible during the 2ww!

  11. Crystal says:

    STICK STICK STICK! Hope this is the one you have been waiting for! Good Luck!

  12. Karen says:

    What great news, Natalie! All my crossables are crossed for you. I hope you have a restful 2ww with a very happy ending!

  13. Cynthia says:

    woohoo.stick lil baby stick…i still think no one deserves a baby more than you two…how long is the wait 1 or 2 weeks? i forget with fet…

  14. Nat says:

    With a blast FET it’s a one week wait! :)

  15. Sally says:

    Grow little one!

  16. elizabeth says:

    sending lots of love to you all!

  17. Ariel says:

    ONE WEEK! AAAAA!!!! I am so so SO glad to hear the little blast made it to transfer. Needless to say I’ll be thinking of you constantly for the next week (and afterwards).

  18. michele says:

    Wishing you all the luck in the world!

  19. Jennifer says:

    Absolute best of luck Natalie! You two deserve this!!!

  20. Kristine says:

    Best of luck Natatlie…everything is crossed for you two!!!

  21. Mrs F says:

    Best of luck, I really have everything crossed for you here. Good luck good luck good luck good luck!!

    xx K

  22. Anne says:

    awesome! you look so happy :)

  23. Meike says:

    Good luck!

  24. Bridg says:

    All of which is very lovely…
    But where is a photo of the door that is almost as good looking as Den?

    ps. Good luck – of course!

  25. Emerald Rose says:

    Thinking of you and praying for you. Please stick this time, embryo.

  26. Cynthia says:

    haha yay 1 week.. that is far much better than 2 weeks…1 week to wait.. i think we’re all waiting here with ya! come on baby…stick stick stick…

  27. Nat says:

    Bridg – Hahah! We haven’t picked it up yet, so soon!

  28. Me says:

    Fingers crossed for you Nat!

  29. Best of Luck!!! Im praying for you!!

  30. Andrea says:

    Thinking of you and Den.

  31. Bobbi says:

    I know you don’t pray but I’m praying for you and a sticky little bean!

  32. Amber Nicole says:

    Lighting a candle for you! <3

  33. Lyanna says:

    Hi sweetheart, quickly checking up with you guys from our sunny resort in Tobago (omg … talk about paradise .. maaaaaan!)

    Anyhow, I was anxious to know whether the thawing went ok, and apparently it has! YESSS! Now holding toes, fingers, and everything else crossed so that beautiful little embie sticks and grows out to be something even more beautiful.

    Hang in there, and sunny kisses from Arno and Wendy

  34. Susan says:

    That is awesome they let Sheepie in with you!! I’m wishing you tons of stickyness :-)

  35. Jacquie says:

    I don’t comment much, but I read alot.

    The picture of the embryo was really cool to see (I know silly)

    Sending tons of sticky vibes