It gets a name
I did mention that I had taken another test last night. As soon as I saw the bleeding the first thing I did was grab the second Answer test I had in the drawer, just to double check, just to see. I just looked at it to make sure it still had a line (it did), Den said it looked darker this time (I shrugged and said, “Looks like it, I guess”) and then tossed it in the drawer with all the others.
This evening I remembered I had it there so I pulled it out to take a look. Ummm, yeah. Just a little darker.
Here is the one from Tuesday morning, 11dpt, FMU. (And the pic with Sheepie.)
And this is the one I took last night, Thursday, 13dpt, first thing after getting home from a large dinner (ie, not ideal POAS circumstances).
So I guess I finally got that “obviously dark” line that I was waiting for. I’m glad it happened when it did, because I really really needed some reassurance yesterday, but at the same time I’m a little pissed because I can’t sit back and say, “There we go!” and feel all better now. The bleeding has ensured that I remain paranoid as hell about this. I want to knock on my uterus and say, “Hello?? Anyone still in there??”
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This embryo was the only one we had not named, out of all the embryos we have transferred. After two failed cycles with named little embryos, Den said he didn’t want to name anything until I actually got pregnant, which I totally understand.
So here we are, pregnant (for the moment), and it has no name. I felt a little bad about that. We started tossing around silly ideas, laughing, and then forgetting about it.
The one thing that occurred to me was that it is Easter. I have a habit now of checking the shelves for little sheep, and of course right now there are a ton of little bunnies. I thought that was kind of cute. I tabled it as a possibility.
Yesterday we went to visit my Oma (grandma) in the care home she lives. Everything is decorated for Easter, which is of course not the least bit surprizing. We’re walking her down the hall in her wheelchair at a leisurely pace, looking at the art and photos on the wall. And then, all alone on a corkboard, there was this:
I stared and blinked, then pointed it out to Den and mom. A sheep and a bunny. I mean, really. People stared at me funny as I took a picture with my big fancy camera of the little thing on the corkboard.
Then tonight we went to go see a movie in the theatre (Knowing). It was a sci-fi/suspense kind of movie. And then just randomly, though it had absolutely no significance to the plot… you guessed it, bunnies. And not just like in the background that you glimpse. I’m talking a main character says, “Look! Bunnies! We get to keep them!” I leaned over to Den and hissed quietly, “Bunnies!!”
So it appears the moons have aligned and this embryo is the Bunny. Because, dude, even I cannot willfully ignore that many signs.
*prays for the Bunny*
That’s one of the most beautiful things I’ve ever seen. I’ll be hoping & praying for little Bunny!
I love the bunny and the sheep. I looks like Devin as the big brother handing the baby bunny the bottle. So sweet. *hugs*
Oh yay, most definitely darker at least. :) Point for you, because I know it will bug you at some point… You called both Tuesday and Thursday 11dpt.
Sending lots of love to you and the Bunny. I love that in the picture the bunny is holding a baby bottle!
I’m so happy that you finally got that second darker line. I’m constantly thinking of you and Den, and praying that “Bunny” will grow into a beautiful baby.
Thinking of you guys. And Bunny too.
Hang in there, hon.
xxx
That test made my heart race! I hope this is it Natalie, I hope that when you get back to the US you get that beta draw that can give you some reassurance! I’ll still be thinking good thoughts for you Den and Bunny!
Hmmmm, notice how the sheep is a BOY with a blue bow, and the bunny is holding a GIRLY pink baby bottle? I really like this sign. I know it’s a long road ahead but if I could grab 1000 stars and positive wishes for ya, I would!!!!!
Stick around, Bunny, spring is coming!
Hang in there, Natalie, I can’t imagine what an emotional rollercoaster you must be on.
You are so cute. Bunnies are happy things.
The sheep/bunny art is amazing! And that line is totally darker- which is reassuring. Every ounce of my positive energy and thoughts are going to you.
the line IS darker! :) also; i don’t push away those “signs” either. it would mean something very significant to me also. look at the sheep with a blue bow (devin) and the bunny with the pink bottle? hmm i wonder if that means baby is girl? :)
Now that is a MUCH darker line. I know it isn’t totally reassuring but dammit dude, it makes me feel a little better to see it that much darker ;) *hug* Bunny….grow for mama and daddy.
I have been lurking for awhile and love your blog. I cried when I saw that picture of the bunny and the lamb. Congratulations on your BFP, and I will hold you in my thoughts. Your optimistic and compassionate approach to life is very moving.
Hoping for a sweet little Christmas Bunny!
Wow that’s a sign if I ever saw one…I also love how the sheep is standing up while the bunny is sitting down, as if it’s lovingly looking over the baby bunny and taking care of it. I really believe in signs, we had a huge sign with this baby and it still blows my mind. I am so excited for you and wish you nothing but the best!!
Oh- it looks great to me- much darker. And it is still early. I am so happy for you!
I love the darker line, I love the bunny and the lamb picture…so hoping that the Bunny makes itself at home for the next nine months!
u know maybe th embryo wasnt fully implanted..but enough for light positive tests and then it kept implanting??? (im trying to think of all possible answers for you)
Beautiful line. Go Bunny, go!!
Bunny = cuteness! Hang in there Natalie…”lurking” frequently and rooting for you. xoxo – m