And it starts
And the fear kicks in high gear. My inability to get a dark line on any test just has me wondering why. I did last time – they got progressively darker. I really expected on Monday to get a darker line (or no line – that was my fear) and then I would feel better and I could celebrate. So to just keep getting light lines is driving me crazy. FRER is in the garbage, because 4 tests and they’re all barely visible. Clearblue +/- was an obvious line, but still light. And today I used an Answer brand that Den brought from home – the same brand I used for testing with Devin’s pregnancy. It’s definitely a more solid line than the FRER and came up right away. But it’s still light. Like as light as when I first tested with Devin. And I know you shouldn’t compare tests, especially 1 1/2 years apart, but how can you not? I want to see a dark line so I can stop worrying!
Ugh. Yes, it starts.
Anyway you can do a blood test in Canada for peace of mind, even if you have to come out of pocket a little for it? Thinking of you and hope that you are not too worried, it’s probably just because it’s so early.
Poor Nat! I hope you don’t deal with worry and fear for every minute of this pregnancy, but you’re dealing with such a fraught past. Wishing you peace of mind!
First off, congratulations! I am a new-ish reader and so delighted to hear your good news. For what it is worth, my “dark lines” have all eventually miscarried and the lines for my now 2-yr old were so faint they were barely visible. I think my point being – don’t read too much into the shade of the line. I *love* that you’ve put up a counter and are determined to enjoy this pregnancy as much as you can. Good for you. Very best wishes!
Don’t compare the lines! The SAME thing happened to me. When I was pregnant with Gregory my lines got darker every day. This time they did NOT and I went through the same stress and emotions you are dealing with. Just keep taking the digital so the word “pregnant” will pop up. I am sure you will get great beta numbers next week. I am thinking of you.
The only thing that a HPT will tell you is that you have HcG in your urine. That’s all. Depending on how much water you’re drinking, how concentrated the urine is, etc etc. I know it’s hard NOT to read into it, but you CAN’T read into how dark or light the line is as an indicator that your HcG is rising or not.
As long as you have a line, you have a line.
The only thing that WILL give you confirmation and levels? A beta.
*hug* Hang in there. As long as you keep getting lines? Doesn’t matter how dark or light they are. You’re pregnant.
xxx
Thanks for the reassurance girls. This is going to be a rough ride.
Nat…firstly Congratulationnnsss…yayyy..sooo excited..
secondly..a line is a line..remember!!!!! it doesnt matter if its dark or light…like the previous commenter..its just a matter of ur urine concentration…so girl..relax [i know easier said than done]…and enjoy it…pretty soon its going to be december :) god bless u n Den :)
I always got light lines with FRER, even at like 20 DPO. I’m guessing that some of them just don’t get darker. Once I got a positive with the Clearblue Easy Digital I gave up on testing.
I think that you need a beta ASAP. As you know, you are probably also going to need a repeat beta to make sure that the numbers are doubling. It would most likely be better to start the process now. Making it through a subsequent pregnancy is hard enough without knowing where you stand.
I would go get a beta for sure. Does Canada have any walk in clinics?
Also, let’s see some pics! Maybe we can judge them better?
I’ve had dark lines and light lines…miscarried with both so I don’t think you should read too much into the dark and light lines. the fact you took a digital and it says pregnant pretty much says it all. I feel your pain…I really do. A loss takes everything innocent and wonderful out of being pregnant. I was a basket case the entire 40 weeks I was pregnant with my daughter. I found it more than comforting to have my dr who understood my needs and went over the top to make certain he did everything in his power to make sure this pregnancy was successful. Good thoughts and prayers are going out to you and Den Natalie!!!
Hang in there Nat. No advice, but I’m here with you.
Natalie – I wouldnt worry – the clear blue easy said it black bold letters pregnant!!! How many days past ovulation are you? I know my sisters lines didnt even show up until she was late…have you called the doctor yet?
I am soo excited for you – hang in there…its your turn – itll be okay!
Am I the only one who cannot see the pregnancy ticker?
LOL Shelly, no, it’s not on the blog yet… I need to do that. I *think* people are just excited that I have one in general. ;)
I can’t even begin to tell you how many hpts I’ve taken over the years (I know with one pg I was so sure it was just a dream that I took 14 tests – I needed constant reassurance I wasn’t dreaming it up!) I’ve had light lines and dark lines, some barely there lines and no mistaking it even across the room lines and it didn’t have any bearing on how things turned out. What helped me (and you can take it for what its worth to you) was focusing on the fact that I was indeed pg and that was a start. I’d worry about the numbers later.
Hang in there, I know its got to be quite tumultuous feeling right now for you. You have a great cheering section going and we all are wishing the same thing for you.
{{hugs}}
I can understand your nervousness but if I’ve learnt anything from my miscarriages, it’s that you really need to revel in your pregnancy from the word go, whatever the outcome of it.
What will be will be, you can’t change nature BUT what you can do is enjoying every single millisecond that you ARE pregnant.
I’m keeping everything crossed and cheering my little heart out for you right now….