Glow in the Woods 6×6 for May. Join in with me, write in your own blog and then leave a comment in GITW with a link.

1 | In a word, how would you characterize yourself before your loss, and then after?
Before: Joyful. After: Adrift.

2 | How do you feel around pregnant women?
I always look at them full of envy and question, do they really appreciate what they have? Do they really understand how precious it is?

3 | How do you answer the ‘how many children’ question?
“None living.” And then I wait to see if they ask what exactly that means. I think about saying, “One – he died.” But so far I haven’t been brave enough.

4 | How did you explain what happened to your lost baby to your living children? Or, if this was your first pregnancy, will you tell future children about your first?
We will absolutely tell our future children about Devin. I hope to make him a part of our lives, with his tree, his scrapbook, his photo. I hope our children grow up cherishing his memory too.

5 | What would another pregnancy mean to you, and how would you get through it—or are you done with babymaking?
Another pregnancy would mean everything to me. Hope renewed. A second chance at getting this right. I hope to take lots of photos – even more than last time – and spend time every day being thankful for what I have. And then try not to freak out completely.

6 | Imagine being able to step back in time and whisper into the ear of your past self the day after your baby died. What would you say?
Just do what you are doing. Write. You will get through this.