Movie and TV Celebrities with Infertility
It’s more than you’d think.

Freaking headache. Started around 4pm? Got worse. By 7pm was really hurting. Tylenol took a while to help. Now it’s just a very light pressure on my head.

Here’s some notes for myself for when I get my results from the blood tests:

TSH Normal Range, Adults:
0.4–4.5 mIU/L

I just want to thank all my friends for the support you’ve all given me. I read some absolutely aweful stories on the forums – of friends saying, “If you do IUI or IVF I don’t want to know about it,” etc. Maybe it goes against her beliefs, maybe she’s just really really insensitive. But either way she ought to be supportive of her friend… or what kind of friend is she? So I am very thankful, that you guys are all so supportive, no matter how hard it is for us, no matter what route we end up taking.

I also feel very thankful that both our parents are supportive. They all know we’re trying to conceive, and while they may not fully understand what we’re going through (since all of them had kids at the drop of a hat), they offer silent support anyhow. My mother doesn’t really know what to say, but encourages me by saying, “It’ll happen, Nat, it’ll happen.” His mom just listens to me talk about it and offers sympathy. I think sometimes that’s the best kind of support – just listening, and being there. I know a lot of people have troubles with their in-laws of some form or another, but I love my mother-in-law. I couldn’t have asked for a better one.

I read a very interesting perspective the other day, though unfortunately I can’t remember where. She said that the reason so many people react badly to talk of infertility is because it makes them feel vulnerable. It’s much easier to go through life believing it could never happen to you, but when you have someone right in front of you saying, no it’s not that easy, no we don’t know why – well a lot of people find it easier to blame the victim. “Well you aren’t relaxing enough,” “You’re thinking too much about it.” I’ve noticed that with a lot of things in life. When something bad happens, people like to justify it, find reasons for it. The old, “She shouldn’t have been wearing that,” when a girl gets raped. It makes the world a whole lot less scary if you believe there’s a reason behind it.

We’re not officially classified as dealing with “infertility” yet – and light willing we’ll never get to that point. But after being having my illusions broken about how “easy” getting pregnant would be, I’m definitely keeping an open mind and planning for the future, just in case.

Temp is staying up, it does appear that I ovulated. Cheer!! Den went home today so I’m on my own. Eggie was just in time. :) Yay for predictable cycles!

Since I’ve been here my mom and I have had several conversations about pregnancy and such. She’s being far more supportive than I ever gave her credit for. Today I flopped onto my bed and then gave a mutter about my boobs being sore. And mom said, “More sore than usual?!” lol She keeps saying, “Langley magic!” I really do think she has her fingers all crossed, too – not because she wants to be a grandma, the thought scares her to death in some ways, but simply because it’s what I want, and she’s seen just a bit of how hard it is for us.

Something interesting: today mom came out of her room with some papers and a BBT thermometer. I just blinked and hoped she hadn’t bought me one, because I already have one. Then she pointed at the papers. I took a peek and they were charts – her charts, from 1984. She said she was wrong, it hadn’t taken only 3 months to conceive Cory; they started in March, and she found out she was pregnant in September. Strangely, that makes me feel better.

It was pretty cool to see her charts, though. My mom saves anything… just like me. :)

A little off-topic, but I’m feeling so worried about babies lately. First Erika’s Sammy went in for his second surgery a few days ago, and after the surgery he had a scare with his vitals all dropping and his lungs filling with fluid and other very not so fun things. It’s bad enough knowing that the poor baby has a heart condition. And then Jen went into labor and Evie’s heart wasn’t beating after she was yanked out via c-section. Thankfully both babies seem to be healing well and getting ready to finally go home. But man… that’s just so scary. I think everyone thinks about pregnancy and labor with such a positive feeling, and the worst fear you have is of the pain of labor. I sure never gave much thought to all the bad things that can happen, because it happens, just not to people you know. Now that’s not the case.

But even with all that, my heart still pangs. Seeing Kel’s nursery all set up, seeing Jen holding baby Evie… makes my heart melt. *sigh* I really really want to believe that it will happen any month now. I hope so, I really really hope so. Another week or so before I can test. What can I give to make this month the one? I’m going to feel like I hit the jackpot when this finally happens. How hard is it to get a sperm in an egg. Come on, spermies! Do your damn job!

My face seriously broke out this morning (I counted at least 5 whiteheads), and I’m so not happy about it. :mad:

I got my blood test results back!

Thyroid: 1.4 (completely normal!)
Chicken Pox: Immune (never had it – so yay!!)
Rubella: Immune
Lead: Negative
Cystic Fibrosis: Negative for carrying
Tay Sachs: Negative for carrying
HIV: Negative, of course

The only ones I was concerned about were the chicken pox immunity, since I’ve never actually had chicken pox before (nor have I gotten immunized or anything), and my thyroid function – I thought low thyroid function would really explain a lot of things. I should have gotten it checked years ago, in fact. But no… completely normal.

So that’s all very good news!