A little off-topic, but I’m feeling so worried about babies lately. First Erika’s Sammy went in for his second surgery a few days ago, and after the surgery he had a scare with his vitals all dropping and his lungs filling with fluid and other very not so fun things. It’s bad enough knowing that the poor baby has a heart condition. And then Jen went into labor and Evie’s heart wasn’t beating after she was yanked out via c-section. Thankfully both babies seem to be healing well and getting ready to finally go home. But man… that’s just so scary. I think everyone thinks about pregnancy and labor with such a positive feeling, and the worst fear you have is of the pain of labor. I sure never gave much thought to all the bad things that can happen, because it happens, just not to people you know. Now that’s not the case.

But even with all that, my heart still pangs. Seeing Kel’s nursery all set up, seeing Jen holding baby Evie… makes my heart melt. *sigh* I really really want to believe that it will happen any month now. I hope so, I really really hope so. Another week or so before I can test. What can I give to make this month the one? I’m going to feel like I hit the jackpot when this finally happens. How hard is it to get a sperm in an egg. Come on, spermies! Do your damn job!