4:15am Saturday morning, sleeping isn’t going so well (every time I lay down I feel like my head balloons). But it’s technically Saturday. 27 weeks. Third trimester.

Holy %!$#!%#.

It doesn’t even feel possible, really. How is my second tri already over? Where did that time go?

Now we’re coming to crunch time. Lists time. Gotta-get-stuff-done time. I have a pretty extensive to-do list, and hopefully we’ll actually get through it before the baby joins the party of life outside the womb. I’m not quite panicking yet… just feeling bound and determined. And I’m writing a lot of lists. List-Therapy. Yeah. Like I said to someone else, I kind of suck at the follow-through, but I am awesome at writing lists.

I look forward to purchasing the items I have bookmarked all across the web as “to buy before baby comes.” The money scares me a little, though.

Yesterday I was researching and comparing prefold diaper prices online and ended up staring at the wet bags I have had bookmarked for months and months. Lo and behold, this time they had a fabric that I really liked available (the blue watercolor flowers one, if you’re curious). So I bookmarked it in my mind and reminded myself to go buy what I need “later.” 10 minutes later I’m sitting here thinking, wait a minute. Why don’t I just order them now, while they have what I like in stock? It costs around $20. I mean duh. So I ordered them. Now I’m inquiring about the cloth wipes I want…. made by a SAHM for cheaper than anything from a “name brand”, and they come in a ton of really really cute fabric choices! I’ll probably be ordering the prefolds soonish, too.

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To kind of commemorate my finishing my second trimester, I wrote this for one of my forums. I kind of want to keep it.

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I have a sinus cold. I frequently pee my pants when I sneeze. My legs are super sore from travelling. My house is freezing cold… and it’s absolutely fridgid outside. The cats just knocked over the stupid baby gate YET AGAIN, and the dog won’t stop whining (he’s in time-out after eating some of my tissues). In short, I have a lot I could complain about.

And yet all I can think about tonight is how very lucky and blessed that I am. We went through so much to get pregnant… we had run out of insurance and I had literally given up hope when the last IVF worked. Our last chance. Our one embryo. And he decided to stick around.

I am contantly reminded of how lucky I am, every day when I feel him kick and wiggle in my belly. Even when he kicks something uncomfortable, I still have to laugh and pat my stomach and tell him thank you for reminding me you’re still there.

I am just in awe at what my body knows how to do naturally. I feel like I was made to be pregnant… like this is what I’ve been waiting my whole life for. I’ve never felt more comfortable in my body. I feel gorgeous. I look in the mirror and just stare in amazement at my beautiful baby belly. I think it is just perfect. Even how my belly button has started to pop out, and the blue veins all over my belly and boobs. I love how my body is changing.

My baby shower has been booked for February 16. Hubby helped MIL find the location (where he works – he got it for free!) and the only “cost” of the use of the club is that we have to pay for a bartender… who happens to be my hubby. So we get the place for free, AND my hubby will be there and get to share in the excitement! I am SO excited. I’m positively giddy that we get to have a party for MY BABY. My wonderful, beautiful little boy. I am so so happy to be able to celebrate this with family and friends.

AND my hubby told me today that my best friend in the whole entire world has booked flights to come to my shower!!!! Of course it still rides on her and her baby being healthy enough to fly, but we don’t anticipate any issues. I am SO excited!!

I have 3 months left in this pregnancy, and I’m scared and excited and anxious and everything in between. I’m nervous about becoming a mommy in truth, having a newborn to take care of. I’m so so excited to get to meet this little child that I’ve been growing, to discover his personality and see what he looks like and watch him learn and grow. I’m very sad that I have only 3 months left of being pregnant before I go back to being “just me” again. And I’m a little anxious about getting everything done in time! Time has just flown by, even though I have tried my utmost to enjoy every single second.

Life is far from perfect, but there is SO much to be thankful for. This pregnancy is the biggest blessing I could ever have received.