Well I think the pregnancy hormones are starting to hit me in a little way, because so far today I’ve found myself either in or near tears three times. It’s only 10:30am.

The first one I actually cried, and it was for an idiotic reason: I couldn’t find the remote control for my camera. I take my weekly photos with a tripod and a remote with a timer. I always put the little remote (it’s about an inch and a half long, inch wide) on our table right in the same place. In fact I remember doing that just the other day, because I found it on my desk. Well today it was gone. I tore the room apart… took everything off the table, off my desk, looked underneath both… it was NOT THERE. I got extremely upset and started crying. Den tried comforting me, telling me that he can just take the photos today and we’ll find it later, but there’s no way I could take photos while in tears. (I finally found the damn thing, if you’re wondering – it was under the couch on the other side of the room. Can anyone say, “Effing cats”? I sure can.) But yeah. Small issue, large meltdown.

The other two instances are much more justified.

One girl – whom I didn’t really know that well – in a pregnancy group of mine found out at her big ultrasound that her baby has a huge brain problem. Like so large they don’t even know if she’d survive once born, and will definitely have very severe issues if she did. The last week has been just terrible for her… finding out that the scan didn’t look normal, getting more scans and opinions, and having to make decisions about what to do. The whole community is just devastated for her, and every time I think about it I tear up. I just can’t imagine that kind of pain. I wish I could do more. I feel like anything I say doesn’t say enough at all, that the words are just not conveying how very heartbroken I am. Even though I didn’t know her well at all… it doesn’t matter. I cry for her.

And then the mailman came to our door and Den brought in two packages addressed to me! One was a gift from Kel, which she had told me would be coming. Exciting, yes! The other package had me totally stumped though. (And I’m so bad with my shopping every time I get a package I don’t remember ordering I start wondering what on earth I bought!) Well it was a gift for Devin… from a girl on one of my message boards. Totally, totally unexpected. It’s a wall hanging, one of the Sweet Vanilla pieces that we want to get for Devin… it’s SO precious. It’s the first thing we’ve gotten for his room. I was just so touched that she bought him a gift I teared up. I am so appreciative… so thankful for all these wonderful women I have met online. I don’t know where I’d be without all of them.