I talked to one of the nurses today (whom, I might add, rock my socks. I love the IVF nurses!) who gave me the rough details of my cycle. She said I can start my BCP tomorrow. I start Lupron on the 25th, with AF expected around the 30th. She also seemed to think that my retrieval would be the week of July 8th – 14th. It just really depends how stimming goes… I still think that by my calculations, judging by how long I stimmed last time, my retrieval will be right before we go away (we’re going from July 15th-17th), but transfer might be right in the middle. I guess it depends, and we won’t really know until we get there. :/ It would be really nice if we could be finished in time for our vacation, spend those days of the 2ww just being away. But I know that it’s cutting it close.

She told me that they’re mailing me a list of all the medications I need and instructions/dates for everything. Apparently my medications from the IVF pharmacy are refillable so I just need to put in a call to them to order more. I do have quite a bit left over, so I’ll have to go through it and see just how much. I have an almost-full cartridge of Follistim, but last time I used just more than one so I might need another. That will be an expensive purchase. I’m pretty sure I used nearly all of my Menopur, so that’ll be another big cost. Plus I don’t know at the moment how much is left of our $1500 meds cap with the insurance, so we might have to end up paying for everything ourselves. :( I guess I should call and find out so we can mentally prepare ourselves for that.

Don’t even get me started on worrying about how we’re going to pay for FETs… or, worse, another fresh cycle. As I was worrying to Den about never having children he told me that we are going to do as many cycles as it takes to get pregnant, no matter the cost. Even if we have to take out huge loans to do it. He’s waited over 18 years for a child, and while I haven’t waited nearly that long, the idea of never having one is just terrifying to me. I’m really glad we’re together on this. (Den was married once before, for over 10 years, and she didn’t want to have any more children than the two she’d had previously. He had to live with the knowledge that he may never have his own children – as at the time he fully intended to stay married. I can’t imagine how hard that must have been on him.)

My period never really hit in full force today. It’s weird, because I definitely have red flow, but it’s very light. I’m sure this doesn’t bode well for the next few days… no heavy start means it’s not going to get over with quickly. However, I did order more cloth pads today… they should arrive hopefully Monday. (Though right now my flow is too light to use cloth pads! It’d be a waste. I’m using up a lot of my panty liners/light pads I have still in my closet.)

And now it’s time for bed because man, I am exhausted. Today I just didn’t feel all with it. I still need to get up at a reasonable time in the morning to work on some freelance stuff, but I’m going to enjoy my time in bed while I can. And I still have Lambie by my side.