I have been attempting – and I mean this very lightly – to start exercising a little bit. The past two days I’ve taken one of the dogs for a bike ride. Granted I’m sticking to their pace because I certainly don’t want to overwork them (and apparently I’m not, because they’re still hyper the rest of the day), so I am not getting much of a workout myself. Although my ass does feel rather bruised. I think I need better padding on my seat. Hmph.

Part of the reason for this new motivation is my scale weighing me in at 143. That is, yet again, my highest weight ever… and I haven’t started stims yet so I can’t blame anything else. I fully admit it is 100% due to my behind being glued to the couch all day. What can I say, I hate being active.

Tonight was my last birth control pill. I really am not sure when I should expect AF to show, but I’m guessing about 2-3 days. I’m starting to feel a little more jittery now – it’s getting closer and closer to the time of everything happening.

For my second injection two nights ago I was so bouyed by the first one being pain-free that I decided on a whim to do it myself. And I did! I did it myself! It stung a little bit more than when Den did the first one. And then unfortunately Den walked out to do my injection, I said, “I did it!!” and I swear to god his face fell. I felt so bad! He is taking this whole thing very seriously… ever since he found out he’d be giving me injections he made an effort to do injections at work and learn the proper way to do it and to take it on himself as his own “job” in all of this. I guess I forgot that. I made sure to point out the tiny red welt that I had managed to give myself. I don’t think it helped him feel better.

So I’ve decided to let him do my injections… both to make him feel more involved in this process, and because he does actually do it better.

However my left side of my tummy seems to dislike me. We’ve been alternating, because I read that’s what you’re supposed to do. First injection was on the right side – not a mark. Second injection, by me, on my left – had a red rash around it for about an hour, and left a tiny red bump. Third injection, right side, nothing at all. Fourth injection – tonight – by Den, and it had that red rash around it again. Hmm, very odd. Why does my left side dislike me so?

The insulin needles, they aren’t very bad at all. They’re tiny little things. I’m still a little shocked that I’m handling this all as well as I am. I was the girl in grade 9 throwing a fit because she had to get a shot in school. (Granted that was in my arm, and I still don’t like those.) It’s all about the motivation, I guess.