Somehow it is Saturday already and I’m leaving at 3am for New York. I’m not quite sure how that happened – where did the week go? All I really remember is a lot of exhaustion. Oh, and drinking and eating too much last night. You probably wouldn’t believe me if I told you I did my drinking before finding out that so-and-so is pregnant. Thankfully someone I only know through association, but it still made me feel so sad… yet another reminder that something’s wrong with us, but for normal people life goes on. And it’s just so disheartening. Thank goodness I’m starting my IVF cycle, though – at least I really do believe that in two months I’ll be pregnant. Without that hope, that knowledge… I really think I would have simply dissolved in tears right there in the bar and asked Den to catch a ride home and left.

In any case, tomorrow is the conference. I’m super excited, but I’m also getting very twitchy. I don’t have a bag to take with me – I guess I’m going shopping in a few minutes to look for one. I have a big backpack, but they’re so bulky in crowds. I have a purse, but it’s hard to carry around. I want a hip-sling bag of some sort that I can keep with me at all times (since I can be rather, umm, absent-minded) but can carry any folders and stuff I want to take with me.

Due to me feeling a bit anxious I’m probably going to spend the night “preparing” for my trip…. getting info printed out and folders ready to go, a notebook for notes, etc. Deciding what to wear. Remind me never to throw my jeans in the dryer again… I can’t even put my socks on without unbuttoning them. Guh. Don’t know how comfortable it’s going to be wearing these for an entire day! But it’s not like I have a lot of options. :? Perhaps I’ll look for some new pants in addition to a bag.