I am feeling much better today. Still not unfettered excitement, but hopeful and not quite so freaked out. Everyone else seems to think that my situation is really good, so… who knows.

We did go ahead with the IUI, we had it this morning. We reserved a private room for the “sample emission”, and poor hubby was all wigged out. He hid around the corner when I went up to the window to announce our arrival. LOL! Men are such dorks.

So the numbers… after the wash we had 47 million total motile sperm. I didn’t catch the total sperm, but he had a very high percentage of motile sperm, giving us quite a good number!

It was pretty quick and easy. Although it did give me a few flashbacks to the HSG when she was putting the catheter in – she said my cervix is a little twisty and very tight, making it a little more interesting. It wasn’t our usual RE, I’m not actually sure what her name was, I didn’t catch it. But she was very nice, chattered away at us the entire time.

Although the funniest part was watching Den in the room while I had my IUI. I sat down on the table and he was seated on a chair off to the side. The RE said he could stay there or move up to the chair beside my head to hold my hand. I shrugged and said whatever was fine. So he intended to stay where he was, until I layed down and spread my legs in the stirrups, then Den realized he had far more of a view than he had bargained for and he made a run for the chair by my head. LOL!! He held my hand the entire time. Somehow I got the feeling I was comforting him more than him me.

He is so hopeful and excited this month. I am not nearly as expectant as him. He keeps telling me not to worry and talking about how I could be pregnant right this second. He asked when I can test and got all excited when I told him the date (Dec 17 is what I’m telling him – that’s 12dpiui), he said it will be a wonderful christmas present. He’s very cute, but at the same time I worry how hard he’ll take it if this cycle doesn’t work out. I worry how hard I’ll take it, especially right before christmas. As if I really need more to fret about.

Right now I’m just trying to focus on the numbers, on my organization, and just stop worrying about possibilities for the moment. I just need to keep my mind busy and I’ll be fine. 12 days to wait.