I’m feeling much better about things now. I got some great advice and support from those peer counsellors that just helped to calm me down a lot and give me some perspective. Plus just time thinking about things has helped my mind sort things out.

I think I am going to go ahead with the Clomid and IUI. We can talk to the RE and decide where we want to go from there, but I think this month I really need something different done, something to look forward to. I’m glad we’re doing the day 3 bloodwork and the HSG – I’m nervous about the HSG but trying not to think about it – but I just need something different in the babymaking equation.

I’m already feeling excited too. Getting my “IUI” blinkies out, reading about other people who are doing IUIs, planning out my cycle depending on when AF starts. My AF will start this week either thursday or friday. We want it to start friday. It would really suck for AF to crash Thanksgiving. I don’t think very much of the holiday as it is, but having AF arrive mid-dinner would really make it suck. So please, dear uterus, hold off until friday if you can. This also avoids any weekend doctor visits.

So yeah. Clomid and IUI. Yikes. I guess we jumped on the infertility train with both feet. Now I just really really hope that I don’t get very strong side-effects to the clomid. With my depression… well it could get bad. I just really really want to avoid falling to pieces.