Does anyone know a forum for people with depression, or TTC/parent blogs of those who deal with depression? Right now I could really use some support from others who *know* what it’s like – and I’d really love to see how other people deal with life.

Sometimes I worry about my ability to care for a child. Or even get through pregnancy. That’s why I did a lot of research up-front about my medications and pregnancy, because I really honestly need the medications. I’m on the medications, and I still struggle a lot… I still have very bad days. Today is a better day, but even so, my chest feels tight, my thoughts are racing.

I have made the decision to seek a psychologist. It’s been years since I’ve seen anyone about it besides my general doctor, the medications and my own introspection was doing okay. But now… now I’m settled in my new life, my new marriage… my new insurance policy. And I seem to be getting a little bit worse. I don’t really want to increase my medication dosage, but I realize that I need some extra help getting through this. Maybe it’s all the stress from TTC that’s making it worse, who knows. Maybe it’s simply circumstance.

Oh, plus – today I found out from my dad that depression (and possibly anxiety) runs in his side of the family. There are at least 4 others who have clinical depression. Makes me feel a little less of a freak. But, as Den pointed out, that ups our children’s chances at getting it too.