Catch-22
Well I am still pregnant, and not in labor. It appears that I am going to be visited by a few stretches of pre-labor contractions. I’m not upset to still be pregnant, but I can also see how this on-again off-again thing could really wear me out mentally.
The days are starting to blend together already, and it’s only my first week not working. I’d forgotten how unstructured life is – and how boring. Daytime TV sucks, so I don’t even bother turning it on. I can only sit at the computer for so long before my back starts getting sore. I’m trying my hardest not to recline. So that pretty much leaves cleaning/chores and sleeping. Today was a sleeping day. Don’t get me wrong, it feels good to just nap because I feel like it. But it also makes me feel like an utter slug. I finally forced myself to get up and take a shower to wake up… but then I was bored again. It was raining today so I couldn’t even go fiddle with the garden or anything. Sigh. If this state of boredom was going to continue I’d say I need a hobby… but hopefully Kate will be here soon to occupy me!
On the other side of things, as boring as it is to not work, when I am contracting or feeling simply exhausted it is really nice to be able to just putz around my house, sleep, and take care of myself. When I do go into labor I want to be here, where I’m comfortable, in my own little nest.
I’m going to have to come up with more outings for myself…. just one thing a day that I can set my mind to, get out of the house. I appreciate being busy…. just not so busy that I push myself too far. (I just have to make sure that “keeping busy” does not translate into “shopping”!)
I think I am certainly getting closer to that point of being ready and eager to give birth, to see my daughter, have this phase over with. I really can’t believe I’m only 6 days away from my due date. I feel like holy shit, I made it. I made it to the end… to the point where people are calling to make sure you haven’t gone into labor, when you’re fully prepped and just sitting back waiting. When your belly is big and round and makes people in stores eye you nervously. It’s amazing. It’s so real. And now… Now I’m getting ready for the really crazy part.
Oh man, here’s hoping she doesn’t take her time showing up – I think I was with you in working nearly to the end to keep sane and busy! *giggles*
The library! It’s out of the house, free, and results in books you can take home. =) win-win-win!
Haha, the bit about people in stores eyeing you nervously made me laugh, I remember that!
And I vote for shopping, you can never have too many nappies/onesies, etc.
These last days of pregnancy full of expectation and excitement can be nerve-racking . I remember everyone calling me and asking me if I gave birth already.
I tried all the methods of naturally inducing birth after the 39 week but with no success. My first daughter was born at 41 weeks and my second at 40 weeks and 3 days.
But the good news is they will come out:)
Hang in there and wishing you a good birthing experience!
Good times!!!
Just do your best to enjoy these quiet, slow days Nat (which it totally sounds like you are doing- you sound so PRESENT in all of your posts which is both wonderful and rare). In any event, just savor and appreciate them b/c they are going to (happily) disappear soon and you’ll look back and be totally amazed that you ever had such luxurious free time…
Fingers crossed for everything to continue on perfectly and contentedly!
I’m so excited for you!!! <3
SOmething to do? Walking, walking, and more walking, and maybe some yoga!
It’s so great that you’re able to sort of store up sleep since you won’t get as much when Kate arrives.
I’m very excited for you. :)
The last days can literally make you crazy! lol
Id get phone calls throughout the day,and everyone would ask the same questions..”anything yet?” (like Id go into labour and not tell a soul!?? lol).
Also,everyone started to give me tips on how to start labour,so between all of the outside pressure and my own impatience,I was very snappy and tense at the end.
Im sure you are sick of being told to enjoy these last few days of peace..but thats also my advice,because soon,you will find it hard to find the time to even take a quick shower! lol
Dont worry,you´ll be 150% ocupied once Kate arrives.You will miss the luxury of being bored!! ;)
Also,dont worry if you dont have any tell tale signs that labour is going to start.
I NEVER had any..I was never dialated AT ALL before going into labour,heck,Noelia didnt even drop!
My water would just suddenly “pop” and 2 minutes later,my contrax would start.
You may not get a warning,but that doesnt mean it couldent happen like,right now! ;)
I hope she comes real soon!
I agree with Shilpa:
Just savor and appreciate them b/c they are going to (happily) disappear soon and you’ll look back and be totally amazed that you ever had such luxurious free time…