Emotions
I don’t think I have ever felt as beautiful as I feel pregnant. I look at pictures of myself from even the beginning of this pregnancy and it’s not just a different person. It’s a different world. Not only have I become more in touch with myself, but more in touch with the world, with the mother earth. I am the mother earth. I embody serenity, contentment. I embody peace.
In a way I wish I was more uncomfortable, more tired, more unhappy – because at least then I’d be ready to let this go. I am 38 weeks 3 days and I am still not ready. People laugh and joke with me about how close to the end I am, how I must be done with it and eager to move on. I go with it, telling a half-truth. I am ready to meet her, to know the ending of this particular chapter – but I am not ready to let go of who I am.
Den laughed at me as I walked by him today, laughed in that indescribably happy way he does when he sees me now. I struck a pose for him and pointed at the belly. “It’s my globe!” But isn’t it true in more ways than just physical looks. This is my world. She is my world. The galaxy on the cat’s collar, except I carry it in my center.
What a beautiful post! I wish I felt the way you did about pregnancy and being pregnant, but I hated every minute of it and could not wait for it to be over. I am envious of those women who do it well, who do it gracefully and happily because I am not one of those women. Keep enjoying this time!
Those pictures are breathtakingly beautiful. They give me a sense of peace just looking at them.
There are times when I miss it. As someone who has always been self-conscious about my looks and my body, it was one of the only times in my life when I felt beautiful and serene.
I think your daughter is so lucky that you’ve chosen to commemorate this time with writing and photography. It’s yet another way that she will feel deeply loved. My mother was part of a generation that was ashamed of the pregnant body and hid it under voluminous clothes. I think Demi Moore started it in the 80s, the idea of showing off and celebrating your belly. I know I did when I was pregnant.
I wish you happiness in every moment. You deserve it!
You look positively stunning! :D
I’m sitting here with goosebumps. Checking this blog daily, hell, more than once a day because I am so eager to know how you are doing and whether little Kate has arrived yet.
You three are in my thoughts constantly!
You look beautiful.
You look gorgeous!
I also loved being pregnant and was loathe to give it up. I was actually starting to get worried about that when I was around 37 weeks because I was afraid I’d be disappointed in some way not to be pregnant. But then I read a blog and the woman said that as much as she enjoyed being pregnant, she could proudly say that being “parent” was better than being “pregnant.” I held on to that sentiment (without necessarily believing that it was possible to be happier than I was when I was pregnant) and found out that she was totally right! There are days now when I miss that lovely feeling of having my baby inside me. But when I look at him and he smiles back at me or people on the bus comment on him, I realize that it’s so much better this way.
Enjoy every last minute of your pregnancy — it’s wonderful that you can. And look forward to it getting even better every day! Can’t wait to read about Kate’s arrival!!!
You look beautiful. It must be hard to know the pregnancy is soon to be over. Meeting her will be amazing.
It is great that u have enjoyed your pregnancy so much. O really hopei get pregnant so I can experience and enjoy it all.
Sorry it is to be over soon, but can’t wait to meet her!
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You look amazing! So glad you are enjoying pregnancy- and the next chapter is going to be even better!
Absolutely beautiful. :D I’m so glad you are both happy and soon get to have what you’ve been looking for for so long.
Just beautiful and pregnancy just fits you so perfectly! You are glowing happy and it makes everyone around you happy! You just look so peaceful and at peace..you know? Im just so happy for you guys!
Beautiful post from a beautiful woman. I am so happy for you!
I absolutely love that second picture..you are looking at the camera and I can see the happiness and serenity in your face.
Being pregnant IS amazing,its the most beautiful,miraculous experience we are blessed with and even though this last pregnancy was super painful and uncomfortable,I still loved every minute of it.
Having a baby is wonderful,raising a child is the most rewarding thing you´ll ever do..but there´s something about pregnancy that is special,because for 40 weeks,you and your baby share your body..you are one.
You lose that once the baby is born,you never get to be that close again..sudeenly you are alone in your body and your baby is a little independant being.Yes,you get to bring home your beautiful baby and another chapter starts..but you miss carrying him/her inside you,its bitter sweet..so I totally know what you mean.
Redaing this made me miss being pregnant….
Thank you so much for letting us share this with you Nat.For over 2 years,I have followed your blog religiously and I am so exited to see what happens next..
((HUGS))
You look phenomenal!!!!!!
I love this post…. :D
I think this is my favorite blog post of yours ever.
You look stunning! And I’m also checking your weblog and twitter daily to see if anything is happening yet.. I hope you’ll keep enjoying those last pregnant weeks!
You look just gorgeous pregnant! I can’t wait for you to actually have her and get pics and a birth story up. Will you guys bring a lap top to the hospital?? Enjoy, enjoy! I am so happy and proud for you and a tiny bit jealous. I can’t have any more because I had a brain aneurysm after baby 2 and I am on too many meds to get pg now.
A beautiful post. A beautiful feeling. A beautiful you.
You look amazing!!