After I had buried myself into bed, moaning, Den snuggled up next to me stroking my hair, he teased, “You know, I don’t remember you whining so much last time.” That’s because I didn’t feel so damn miserable last time!

Today the nausea wasn’t too bad… but instead I had a very upset stomach all day long. I stayed at work, even though I wanted more than anything to lay down and take the pressure off, but I wasn’t sick enough to take more time off. I just sat there, feeling ill. It felt like my ovaries were being squashed in a vice grip. A few times it felt like cramps coming and going and I frantically tried to locate where in my belly region the cramps were coming from: upper and sides. Thank the light I had no bleeding today or I would have ended up at the doctors. I’m pretty sure it’s a result of me eating cereal last night and taking two colace… digestion is moving, but something is upset in there. Gassy. Oh it’s lovely. I just tried to sit still and not move too quickly.

Luckily soon as I lay down it all eases up. I took a long nap after work, then some Maalox, now I’m trying to eat a snack. I’m hoping somewhere in there it eases up overnight. Because today? Yes, I was miserable.

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My ticker is a day off and it’s pissing me off. Devin’s is correct. WTF? I can refresh it manually every day and it’s correct. But if I leave it, the next day it’s a day behind. Things like this shouldn’t be such a big deal, BUT IT IS.

Just like that stupid ass pregnancy wheel. The RE gave her an adjusted LMP (to coincide with my appropriate due date that they calculated by computer and ultrasound), and her wheel said I was due May 27. Umm. I told her that can’t be right, I know I was 9w1d yesterday. So she set that up and the due date was STILL off. I was all like, WTF. I calculated my due date on the computer and counted it out on a calendar, if there’s one thing I’m absolutely sure about it’s my due date. The ultrasound too dated me a day ahead because baby was measuring a day ahead. So when the nurse stepped out of the room for a minute I grabbed the wheel. And yeah, it was borked…. the lines obviously didn’t line up properly. So within 2 months it was a day off, 4 months 2 days off, etc. Ugh. I hate those damn wheels. They need to just use the computer and toss those stupid things out.

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Some questions to answer:

“Will you get a scan next Wed?” Highly unlikely, at least as a standard appointment. The appointment is with a nurse for my first physical and exam. And from the way the nurses have said things previously I am guessing that they do not have ultrasound machines in their offices. Now I COULD ask to be sent over to the RE clinic side and have the tech scan me just for my own state of mind – she specifically said she’d do that for me. But I’d have to ask and I’m not sure if I want to? It depends what happens between now and then.

“Will they check the heartbeat in the office with a doppler next week?” I’m not sure. Possibly. 10 weeks is a little early to hear anything and I’m a little nervous about them trying and not finding anything – that would freak me out more than them not trying at all (but it would certainly be cause to send me over for an ultrasound!) I had a tipped uterus with Devin and they couldn’t find his heartbeat by doppler until I was 13 weeks. That may have changed…. but it might not have.

“Is this a new OB you are at now?” Yes, it’s a new OB. With Devin I was seen by Midwives. I liked the group a lot, I loved a couple of the Midwives. But this time I wasn’t sure that Midwives were the best choice, and decided to go to an OB instead. Like I told Denis, I’m willing to give them a chance and see how this goes, but if I’m not satisfied I’ll switch back to the Midwives. (I am not actually officially high risk, and would still be able to be a patient of theirs, and they already told me that they’d be sending me for ultrasounds much more frequently next time – but again, they don’t have access to an ultrasound machine themselves, they have to send me over, and that’s a major PITA.) So we’ll see. I’ll talk to the nurse on Wednesday and find out what their plan is and when I get to see the actual doctor. (There’s a reason I switched to an OB group, and it wasn’t to see nurses. I realize the nurses probably handle a lot of the routine intake and early appointments, but hello, I want to see the DOCTOR.)

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So the newest Best Thing Ever is Oat Nut bread. OMG! So good! And so full of fiber! I’ve been eating lots of snacks with bread. I’ve never been a fan of whole wheat bread and right now I know I shouldn’t be eating white bread, so this is just fantastic.

What goes on the bread has also changed: I bought Smart Balance. And not because of me. My husband finally had a full physical (after years of me bitching at him to get one) and found out his cholesterol is dangerously high – his LDL is over 200. Great right? He has to go back to the doctor for a follow-up and may very well be put on medication that that. And we’re having to make changes around the house. It’s good timing, though, because I need to cut out the crap foods as well.

I know a lot of women take pregnancy as their free-for-all diet and give themselves permission to eat whatever they want. I’m one of the opposite. It’s actually the one time in my life that I’m able to actually eat healthy on an extended basis. I don’t completely ban junk foods – today I even had a small Mounds bar (mmm, chocolate and coconut…), but I try so hard to pack in all the protein I can – and this time all the fiber as well – that I don’t really have the appetite for anything else. Plus the nausea really helps me keep it all in check, lol. I just really wish it would let me eat salads.

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I know I am behind in a lot of things, but I did put my 8-week and 9-week photos up on the belly pics page. (You can find the link to it on the right sidebar, down under Pregnancy #2.)