Ups and downs, ins and outs
Thank goodness we got to see the gummi bear today, or it would have just been an all over not-fun day. I felt so sick – and not just nausea. I know that digestion slows when you’re pregnant, plus everything’s shifting around in there… well it’s been a while, and I was very stopped up. Things today were not pleasant. The ultrasound also clearly shows my ovaries being squished to a more oblong-than-round shape and being pressed towards my back, oh I can feel those. I don’t think they were still this big when I was pregnant with Devin… they most certainly were not this sensitive.
I most definitely feel pregnant. I feel very, very pregnant. And I’m totally thrilled and in acceptance about that. But seeing the baby on the monitor… it’s a little unreal. I just want to stare and stare and try to convince myself that it’s really in there… in me. With Devin I walked into every ultrasound fully confident that there was a baby, it was okay, and I was happily carrying it. Now there’s a separation. I know that pregnancy does not necessarily equal baby. My brain has allowed myself to fully latch on to the pregnancy part, but is much more reticent to accept this idea of a baby.
It’s only 9pm but I think I need to go to bed in order to be even halfway functional tomorrow.
Hi there…I’m a relatively new reader and haven’t commented before, which makes this a strange comment to delurk on, but I had serious problems of the sort you’re describing. the best thing (besides drinking huge amounts of water) was prunes. I felt like a 70 year old woman with my prunes, but I’m telling you, things were *seriously* uncomfortable without my daily prunes.
Okay, random. Just had to share because I do feel your pain. Congratulations on your gummi. I’ll be reading and praying things stay well.
Nat – when is your 13th week date?
I’ve been holding my breath. It seems (even if that’s such a false milestone) that it won’t feel real…until you know for sure that you’re making it through the typical rocky first trimester. I know exactly how you feel. I think I was at 32 weeks before I ‘let go’ and believed…wow, we’re going to have a baby! I can understand the disconnect, there.
Ditto to Anastasia, prunes are definitely good and yummy.
Bleeding–oh no!!!!!!
Did you have a vaginal ultrasound…could that have something to do with the bleeding? I am so sorry you are having to deal with this. Praying for your little gummi bear–that all is well in there.
WTF! bleeding again? could it be just from the u/s?
I hope the bleeding is from the u/s. That’s what happened on my first one.
(((((((Natalie))))))) I am so thrilled you got to hear the HB (the most beautiful sound on earth, except for the cry of a living newborn, which I can only hope we both get to hear in the spring). Sorry about the bleeding rearing its ugly head again :(
I’ve been telling my whole family about this blog and about you, so they always ask, “What’s happening with that lady? You know, that one you read about?” So when I told them that you are pregnant, they were all very excited.
I love blogs – I love the fact that I’ve never met you but my whole family is happy for you that you’re pregnant!