Survived Friday, too
[6w3d]
I woke up at 4:30 in the morning just feeling… ill. Not running to the bathroom throwing up, but just… not well. I could feel the pressure just below my ribs. I couldn’t fall back asleep. I ended up getting up for the day – sitting up was far better.
I have discovered that muffins, when nibbled on all day, majorly quell the nausea. I don’t even particularly like the muffins – they’re pretty bland, very filling, the kind of thing that sits in your mouth a long time before you can swallow carefully. But then there is peace in the belly region. I like that.
I am still very wary of milk in any form, but I have a suspicion that yesterday morning’s stomach excursion was due to taking my pills in the morning, rather than in the evening like usual (I forgot the night before). Which is also probably why I felt absolutely fine that morning (until about 2 hours after taking my pills). But I’m still treating milk with much caution. I could be reacting to that, too.
I admit, there have been times when I think to myself, I really loved being pregnant? LOVED? I obviously forgot how miserable the first trimester is – either you’re feeling no symptoms and worried about why not, or you’re sick as hell and throwing up every much-loved food you put in your mouth. And either way you have no belly to show off, no kicks to feel. Obviously pregnancy gets a lot more fun as it goes along. We all know it should be VERY worth it in the end, if all goes well – but oh this part is miserable.
And yet! And yet. I find that even as my body gets sicker, my mind feels freer. Here I am, Friday night, 2 1/2 days before my ultrasound, and I feel good. I actually feel pretty confident. I’m starting to regain my footing, regain my faith in this process. I am so relieved that the anxiety is giving me a nice little break, especially in a time when I thought it would be the worst. I just feel…. good. Pregnant good.
Other than being sick, very tired and a wee bit cranky, that is. But all that is just minor inconveniences, right?
I agree with all of the above. :)
Ugh, I remember that– 2nd pregnancy and I was like, “Oh damn! I forgot the first tri sucks!”
Im SO glad you are feeling better (emotionally),you are going to be fine!
You´ll deffinately be able to see the heartbeat on Monday.I was able to see/hear it at 6 weeks with a vaginal u/s,so I dont doubt that you´ll get that much needed reasurance on Monday! :)
Enjoy your weekend and relax momma..you totally deserve this peace.As yucky as these first weeks are,I agree..they are soooo reasuring lol.
Hugs Nat!!
Minor inconveniences. :D :D :D
I’m hoping it was just the pills, too, and you get to have your milk back.
I love “hearing” you sound so positive! I’m sorry it’s so miserable, but I do understand how feeling crappy makes it emotionally easier.
I can’t drink milk when pregnant. Comes right back up.
(hugs)
Yup – pregnancy is a love-hate relationship, that’s for sure. :-) Hang in there.
I know what you mean – aside from the pants-wetting terror, the first trimester is really quite boring. sigh!
One day at a time turns into one week at a time, turns into one month at a time, turns into one trimester at a time…. hang in there!
Nat – don’t take this the wrong way, but I love every time reading about when you threw up *again*. It’s kinda of like a big F*ck You to karma when I read it. LOL
Christina, you scared me, when you start with “don’t take this the wrong way” I brace myself for the worst. LOL and yeah…. I too do a little dance. Or would, if I wasn’t hanging over a toilet. Every time I tell Den I threw up (usually in a long whine) he says “YAY!” lol
You know that women with morning sickness have less rates of miscarriage? I mention it as I sit here nauseated to all heck…I totally empathize with you. I definitely like being sick over feeling good but worried.
Looking forward to the u/s update
Lisa – I have heard that before. Though I was feeling sick with the ectopic too… though I recognize that is a different situation than a miscarriage. I choose to believe that it IS a good thing. lol