2 Years Since
Dear baby boy:
It has been two years since we first found out you were going to be ours, two years since that light came into my life. I know most people don’t consider a positive pregnancy test the start, but with you…. you left too soon. But I had 8 months with you. 8 months of feeling the happiest I’ve ever felt in my life. 8 months of knowing that things were going to be different… that things were different. And this was the start of it. Staring at that pregnancy test, feeling my heart race, feeling giddy and shocked and struck with a sense of wonder beyond anything I had known. I looked at that positive pregnancy test, with two pink lines, and knew you were there, growing.
I can’t believe it’s been 2 years since then. By the time I get pregnant with your next sibling there will have been 2 years between successful IVF cycles. That is the timing I wanted between you and your sibling. I want to keep this happy and remember all the good things, but it’s been a long time. I’m getting so tired, baby boy… so tired of waiting. I can accept the reality that you will never be here with us, but I can’t understand why you don’t have a sibling growing yet. We almost did. We thought we did.
I don’t like watching the time go by.
Remembering the day Devin first came in to your lives two years ago today. Remembering him with love.
Holding you all in my heart today. ♥
Hard to believe all the joy of those days was 2 whole years ago… That was absolutely the beginning, and I hate that the end came so soon. Much love to you guys.
With you on the waiting. And the seeing those double lines – it’s been over 5 years since we saw them here :( Hoping for this perennial waiting to end for us both soon….
Just waiting with you, and wishing with all my might that your beautiful son could be here where he belongs.
Thinking of you and your beautiful boy. How I wish he were here with you.
Thinking of you today.
xx
thinking of you..my heart just breaks for you…i hope this cycle is it girl!
Thinking of you and Den and Devin.
Holding you three close. Love and light to you all.
Ouch! Thinking of you. x
*huggles*
Having recently experienced my second miscarriage I know a tiny bit of your pain though Ill never claim to fully understand it. I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you.