The year in review
A lot of people like to summarize their year by month, remembering the little things that happened. My summary is a piece of shit.
The entire year pretty much came to a grinding halt when Devin died. I mean, for us that will always be the entirety of 2008: our son died, we held a funeral, and we tried to get back on our feet. That was it, the whole year. I was really hoping we could end the year on a good note, with a new pregnancy to celebrate, but apparently not. So 2008 will remain, forever more, the death of our son and our inability to get pregnant again.
But there were other craptastic things that happened this year.
My brother’s dog died of cancer at a very young 3 years old.
My MIL was diagnosed with cancer. At this point it appears they removed it all and she is in full remission, but of course she won’t get the final report on that until early 2009.
And most recently, my last living grandparent had a stroke the week before Christmas (was still in the hospital for Christmas). She does look to be recovering, however she is 94 years old so no one is really thinking positive if you know what I mean.
Of course there were good things that happened around us this year. The birth of our Neice. My brother getting a new pup. I got a new job with full IVF coverage.
But really, 2008 sucked monkey balls and I am really, REALLY looking forward to the new year. I need a blank slate. I know life doesn’t really work like that… there’s no such thing as starting over, you can’t change what happened. But I have hope that 2009 will bring with it new luck for us… a new outlook, and new hopes and dreams. Hopefully a new baby.
Please let 2009 be different. Please.
The way I see it, 2009 will either be better, or we will be dead, because there isn’t much else that could go downhill. Nowhere to go but up…
i am really hoping you guys catch a break soon. I just want to see you write a happy blog, you deserve to write one! I know why you can’t just yet and i hope better days are coming for you. I wish a wonderful new year for you all.
I really hope 2009 brings some really wonderful things to you. I’m ready for this crappy year to be over too.
Ditto on the crappy year. To the hope that 2009 will exceed your hopes and dreams.
You deserve so much more than what 2008 brought you. I hope you get it ASAP.
2009 is going to be a rocking year, trust me on that one, it HAS to be because it’s been crap for absolutely everyone that I know!
I too suffered loss this year…my Dad died the day after my birthday, we suffered our third miscarriage after 9 years ttc….
2009 is going to be THE year….trust me…
Rach
xox
I wrote my year in review and pretty much summed it up the same way you did. I hope 2009 brings good things for you and Den *hugs*
((hugs)) to my cycle buddy
Here’s to a better year for everyone!
How long before you start the next IVF stuff?
I hope you get what you deserve in 2009 because 2008 brought so much pain. Here’s to a NEW year.