Thanksgiving for me doesn’t really mean much. It was always my least favorite holiday and not really looked forward to (being a very picky eater is a big detriment on big family holidays, just to let you know), so I never had any images of Devin on his first Thanksgiving or what we would be doing or where we would be. So for that I was thankful, that made it an easy enough day. The hardest part, for me, was that I kept thinking back to last thanksgiving: that was the day that SIL announced she was pregnant, the first day that she and I were publically pregnant together. I remember exactly what shirt I was wearing that day.

For me, it is not BabyH herself that makes things difficult. I love her to pieces, I love being the special aunt and getting big smiles from her. I love how she fits in my arms and how she stands on my lap. But what I don’t like is watching other people fawn over her. Obviously it’s going to happen, especially at holidays where there is a gathering of family. I generally just wander off when it starts getting to me. I am happy that for the meal yesterday there were only 6 of us adults. There wasn’t much fawning.

All in all I say the holiday passed as good as could be expected. I really enjoyed having a day off work – what a novelty!! A whole day off in the middle of the week. Too awesome. (What was not awesome was my dog not writing in her calendar that it was a holiday. 6:00am pee runs in the freezing cold when I could be sleeping in is just so WRONG.)

I do not expect Christmas to pass by so easily. I am already very torn over it all… a part of me is so thrilled to see Christmas lights out on peoples’ houses, but at the same time I find myself quickly changing the channels when Christmas music comes on. Maybe because it’s not yet December. I want to be happy and joyful, but I don’t know if I can do that this year. So I guess I’m just trying to postpone finding out how bad it will be. I’ll happily live in ignorance for now, and deal with the big hurdle later.

I finally got my christmas present (a working version, that is): my blackberry arrived! I spent a good chunk of yesterday playing with it. I love it to death. I am very happy with my choice to get the Curve over the Pearl… I adore the full keyboard and will never go back. This was definitely worth upgrading for. I spent some time this evening making mobile web versions of some little web pages of mine so I can check things quickly and easily from my blackberry without wading through crap. It’s certainly a very different way of viewing web sites!