Relaxing Doesn't Make Babies

A poem to share

November 16, 2008 — 6:15 pm
I measure every grief I meet
With analytic eyes
I wonder if it weighs like mine
Or has an easier size

I wonder if they bore it long
Or did it just begin
I could not tell the date of mine
It feels so old a pain

I wonder if it hurts to live
And if they have to try
And whether, could they choose between
They would not rather die

I wonder if when years have piled—
Some thousands—on the cause
Of early hurt, if such a lapse
Could give them any pause

Or would they go on aching still
Through centuries above
Enlightened to a larger pain
By contrast with the love

The grieved are many, I am told
The reason deeper lies —
Death is but one and comes but once
And only nails the eyes

There ’s grief of want, and grief of cold —
A sort they call “despair”
There ’s banishment from native eyes
In sight of native air

And though I may not guess the kind
Correctly, yet to me
A piercing comfort it affords
In passing Calvary

To note the fashions of the cross
Of those that stand alone
Still fascinated to presume
That some are like my own

— Emily Dickinson

One response to “A poem to share”

  1. Michelle Kupper (radishwife) says:

    You are always in my thoughts lady. You should spend Christmas doing what is right for you and I think it will do you good.
    You will feel some peace one day. Writing, helping others, talking to people about your loss may help.

    It hits me sometimes like a ton of bricks I am in that moment that day all over again, I do not understand why or what triggers it but then it passes because I remember I am still her mommy and I know she knew she was/is so loved.
    Hugs!