Devin’s birthday is quickly approaching. It’s on Wednesday. I have successfully avoided thinking about it until March. Every year we invite some of Den’s family over for dinner, if not on Devin’s birthday on the weekend before/after. I have yet to actually mention anything. I could say I’m distracted with the girls and other things, but in reality I just have let my mind slide around the whole topic instead of sitting down with it.

It’s been 5 years. He’s be starting kindergarten this year. 5 years feels like a long time… he has two little sisters now. I realized that I don’t really talk to Kate about Devin at all, I keep thinking she’s too young to understand. She knows the picture is Devin, but that’s about it.

His stone should have been placed finally. Maybe I should take a drive.

Kate continues to display many personality styles she apparently inherited from me. For instance, at playgroup the other day someone pointed this out:

She likes lines and stacks and order. Her favorite thing to do with playdoh is to have me open each of the 10 colors so she can shake out the plug of playdoh and line them all up on her table. She has progressed to asking me to make a duck out of each color to line up. She’s not really a big fan of forming anything with her own two hands, though she will squish it with her hand if I give her a patty and ask her to. She’ll press stamp designs into a playdoh patty. But as for rolling and shaping? “No, mama do it.”

Getting her to color is a battle… a subtle, sneaky battle, but a battle nonetheless. I try hard to show by example (she likes to copy me) and encourage her to try herself without making her freak out. She does not like it when she does things “incorrectly,” even though I’m praising her up, down and sideways for her awesome job. However we’re making some progress! If one of us draws a circle (that meets her standards) she will then progress to drawing a line for the mouth, dots for the eyes, scribble for the hair, and lines coming off it for arms and legs. She will also draw a sun. Now she’s trying to draw letters; she can draw H, I and T… basically anything with straight simple lines. Angled lines and curves are tricky. I find it helpful to pretend I’m really busy doing something else, like laundry or changing Ember or cleaning the kitchen. Without me nearby she’ll take more risks.

She does love art projects, though! While coloring is frustrating she really loves stickers and glue and paint. I’ve joined a co-op doing a toddler/preschool curriculum (Funshine Express, if you are curious) and I’m finding it’s such a great starting point. I am the kind of person who needs order and direction so having laid out crafts and lesson ideas are great, we do our school for a half hour or so when she wakes up from her nap, when Ember is still sleeping and we need some quiet activities. Some of the stuff is too young for her, she’s bored in like 2 seconds. But sometimes she really latches on to an idea and loves it! We did a polar bear craft which she carried around for days, and the idea of watching a polar bear youtube clip and building a “polar bear den” (fort of blankets) was fun and kept her excited.

Her favorite toys right now are her musical instruments (drum, xylophone, bell, whistles, piano), the megablocks and lego duplos (I want to get more duplos for her, she loves the ones we have that make animals), her tea set and kitchen/food for pretend, tutu skirt for dancing, tool set, big ball for playing pass and sitting/bouncing on, and books for reading and stacking. Oh and all her stuffed animals who are now in the bed with her. That is new, the stuffed animals thing. She has always had a couple with her in her bed that I put in there, but recently she’s brought more in there and does pretend play and acting with them.

Bedtime has gotten really interesting with all those stuffed animals and the new blanket and the books. Reading a couple of stories at bedtime has progressed to her asking for more books, more books. After we tuck her in – which consists of covering her entirely with her blanket (“Under!!” she instructs if you leave her head out), turning on Puppy (my pal Violet), singing her a song (Twinkle Twinkle or ABCs) and giving her a kiss and leaving – she gets up, grabs her books, and reads loudly to herself in the dark. which wouldn’t be an issue except some days it goes on for hours and ends in her crying that Kipper or Puppy fell dowwwwnnnnn, where issss itttttt?? Now I’m removing all the books from her room. That sucks because she used them in the morning when she woke up. I can’t win!

She is not acting tired at bedtime, is waking earlier than she used to, and yet trying to sleep longer than 2 hours at nap time. It’s a tricky balance. I feel like she’s too young to drop that nap entirely, and, more importantly, I am not ready for her to drop that nap yet. For now I’m being consistent with an earlier bedtime (to make up for the waking earlier) and earlier nap and hoping it holds tight. Once she does drop that nap our bedtime will go a lot quicker, though! But really I can’t complain too much when that’s the only issue! She’s had zero problems with the big girl bed, she has yet to get loose out of her room even though she can open most doors in the house now.

Food is… annoying. She’s not as bad as some toddlers, though her favorite foods are oatmeal, yogurt (she asks for yogurt all day long and would easily eat three bowlfuls in a sitting, if I let her), peanut butter and jam sandwiches, and of course crackers. But her favorite meal is salmon with rice, she practically inhaled a huge bowlful the other day. She eats chicken and fish and pork and beef. She eats apple with peanut butter and was eating oranges in those snack cups. But veggies? Other fruits? She’s having texture issues at the moment. she’s always so proud for identifying pears and strawberries and grapes… won’t eat them. She picks out lettuce and green peppers and corn and beans. She throws a sobbing fit if she sees any pieces of something in her food. Even the yogurt that had strawberry chunks in it, that was a no go. The shredded chicken with beans and corn, only the chicken was acceptable. I’m making an effort here to set a good example, I even took some bites of green pepper and said yum (generally I leave it to Denis to display the great love of veggies… I am not a fan). Some of her refusals are just bizarre, things she used to love and ate all the time. I used to let her graze throughout the day but she started expecting to eat yogurt and PBJ all day whenever she asked so now she’s getting meals and snacks and I’m saying a lot of “No, you already had that,” and, “Oh you’re hungry? Sure, here’s your dinner you didn’t eat earlier.” She frequently decides that oh, she’s not really all that hungry after all.

She did recently have a growth spurt. I didn’t notice anything different with her sleeping or eating but boy did she shoot up! 2T shirts are now all too short for her, she gained a lot of torso height. Legs too, but not as dramatic and she fits nicely into 2T pants. She’s also losing her baby fat, we’ve noticed her cheeks don’t look so chubby and her body has really slimmed down making her look even taller. (Though she’s still short for her age! Now she’s just mildly shorter instead of whoa short.) I keep staring at her, at how big she’s gotten.

How did my little baby get to be 9 months old? Suddenly (or not-so-suddenly – it’s been on my mind for a while) I need to start thinking about their birthday party. Den thinks I’m ridiculous for even thinking about it so early, but he is male; I’m pretty sure they think anything further out than a week in advance is unnecessary.

Ember started crawling this week. She’s been pushing up for a while now, reaching for things and scooting backwards. Finally she figured out how to get those knees to move. She’s not the kind of kid to just take off, but she’s quite pleased that now she can crawl a few feet to reach something she wants. She doesn’t really do more than she feels she needs to and she’s not into exploring yet. I appreciate her restraint. [Of course the day after I wrote this she started crawling around with great aplomb, feeling very pleased with herself.]

The eating thing seems to be making progress, but she’s still “behind” what other kids her age are eating. She now shows an active interest in eating and puts everything in her mouth – an annoying but necessary stage of babyhood. However she has a very strong gag reflex and she’s just not good at eating anything with chunky texture. She’s stopped gagging on purees at least. But any bits that get stuck on her tongue she just starts gagging, sounding like she’s going to throw up everywhere, until I get it out of her mouth. Unfortunately getting things out of her mouth also triggers her gag reflex and she’s thrown up milk on me many times during this exchange (usually when I’m trying to pull some kind of fluff out of her mouth). She makes a face and doesn’t seem terribly impressed by Kate’s old favorites: apples, pears, sweet potato, squash. She really went nuts for the salmon and chicken I gave her (mashed up into tiny pieces), and today she seemed to actually enjoy peas. I find that weird, but whatever works for her.

She still nurses about the same as always. Sshe goes long stretches during the day without eating, nursing a lot before her nap and bedtime… both sides to take up. Nursing her in public is pretty much futile, she cranes her head around while clamped on my nipple (ow) or just refuses to latch at all. She’s way too nosy! We’ve started a little bit of acrobatics while nursing too… pushing against me with her hands and legs. Especially the legs, she’s always kicking and grabbing her feet. I haven’t been able to read a book or use my phone while nursing in a long time, as not only does it distract her but she uses her arms to flail around and hit things and grab whatever is close. It’s like I nurse an octopus… she suddenly grows extra limbs, I think.

Sleep during the day is great, though she takes only one nap a day it’s usually a 3+ hour nap. This works for me because both girls sleep at the same time. At night she’s definitely ready for bed when Kate is. Kate’s bedtime is in flux because some days she naps and some days she doesn’t, but I don’t like putting Ember to bed before Kate because of the risk of the noisy child waking up the sleeping one and the fact that sometimes it takes me a while to get Ember to sleep. She’s now sleeping in her crib with the side off the front, pushed up against my bed. It’s convenient like a cosleeper while giving us both our own room. I usually still nurse her to sleep, and since I totally suck at putting down a sleeping baby without waking them up (seriously, is this a skill my genes left out?) I put her in it then lean over her and nurse her to sleep. Sometimes if she’s tired but giggling and playing I’ll just leave her there and she falls asleep so I know she’s capable of it if she’s in the right mood. (But if I try it in the wrong mood she gets all ticked off.) She’s still waking several times a night and once I’m asleep I just pull her in bed with me. Because I am lazy. This is also why I can’t tell you how many times she wakes up at night, my brain just doesn’t register anything after about 2am. I do feel like we’re disturbing her sleep, but we’re not ready to move her in with Kate yet so we’re just stuck with it. Eh, it’s not that big of a deal to me.

She claps at everything now (especially if you say “Yay!”), blows raspberries at Denis when he whistles to her. She loves banging toys/blocks together and on one another, and uses a drum stick (or whatever object she is holding) to bang on the drum. She’s somehow figured out how to grab the “pen” of Kate’s magnetic drawing board and scribble, she’s quite fascinated by that. When left in the living room she inevitably scoots over to the shelf and pulls down any buckets of toys that weren’t already pulled down by big sister… so basically there’s always a giant pile of toys/stuff in my living room. She also likes to sit in front of Kate’s kitchen and open and close doors. Of course the best toys are Kate’s – specifically whatever Kate is playing with right this second. Especially when Kate brings out the flash cards or stickers Ember is absolutely determined to crawl over and grab whatever it is out of Kate’s hands. (Usually ends with Ember winning and Kate crying, or Kate yanking it away saying, “NO, mine!” Ember usually doesn’t react to that, just keeps trying.)

She’s not a clingy child at all, but I’ve noticed she’s starting to look for and cry for me if she’s tired or hungry or overwhelmed… and now that she’s mobile she’s trying to scoot over to me if I am nearby. There are some things that only mama can fix! She loves to be tickled and kissed, she collapses forward into a giggling heap on my chest – I wish I could freeze her like that for a while! She’s just started throwing herself backwards when she’s on my bed, cackling like a crazed thing.

I wish I got to spend more one on one time with her, because right now unless Den is home and occupying Kate I always have both of them together. Kate gets time with me when Ember is napping/sleeping in; no such luck for Ember. I’m looking forward to the fall when Kate will start preschool so I can start doing things just with Ember.

[2 days late because they haven’t been napping and I was so tired I couldn’t think straight.]

Devin’s birthday was okay in general, but hard for me because the girls decided to nap strike and not let me have a few minutes to myself. I really just wanted to hunker down, go through his scrapbook and feel miserable for a while. I didn’t get the chance. Kate was feeding off my mood and was whiny and demanding. It was just sucky all around. We went out to dinner which turned out well… good food, time out of the house, and the girls were fabulous.

5 years. That seems like an awfully long time. He’d be starting kindergarten this year. I really can’t picture having a tall, lanky 5 year old running around my house, I just can’t. I feel like each year that goes by I get more out of touch with who he would be. I still picture him as an infant in my arms, a little boy with dinosaurs on his sleeper. I could picture him crawling and walking, saying his first words. But now… now it’s so wispy, some dream I had 5 years ago that never came true.

I am sad, but not in a heart-breaking, sobbing kind of way. Just kind of emotionally achy, the way your body feels when you’ve had the flu. Everything is a little tender, a little shadowed. I’m glad the pain doesn’t feel sharp anymore.

Happy Birthday, baby boy. We love you.

One of the most adorable things right now is Kate trying to get Ember to play with her. I looked over and saw them sitting facing each other, legs apart, passing a ball back and forth. Okay, so Kate rolled the ball at Ember, who smacked it and laughed, and sometimes it found its way back to Kate and sometimes Kate walked over to grab it. But still! So cute! And Kate is very open with the encouragement and praise, too: “Come on Ember! Throw the ball!”

Ember is now crawling full time. She was shaky and stilting about it for a few days and then it just clicked and off she goes. It’s so amazing how that happens! She is slower on the hardwood than the carpet, but she gets around. It’s strange to have to keep checking where she’s gotten to. She still doesn’t get into much but she is exploring and finding things that I have forgotten about, random things in corners that Kate never touches, or fluff in the grating, or cards Kate has left under the chair. I had to put packing tape over the entire corner of our recliner that the cats had ripped open as she was bee-lining for it just to pick the stuffing out to eat.

Kate is really getting into the pretend play. She’s making up stories and scenarios to act out. She likes to yell “It’s a giant butterfly!” and we all act scared and run away. She tells stories about characters from her shows, and uses her stuffed animals in make-believe. I also saw her using her little people as little puppets for the first time, having them pretend talking to each other and everything. So neat!

Potty training is coming along quite well… as long as she is naked on the bottom she has zero accidents. She randomly decided the other day to pee on the big potty rather than her little potty, which she’d completely refused to even attempt before. Now it’s funny, she’ll say “Kate potty!” and go running for the bathroom. It cracks me up, it seems like such a big kid thing to do! Now if only she could do that when wearing undies. It should click soon, I think.

The problem with your first [live] child is that they really feel they can’t function without your constant attention.

“Mama, I dropped it!”
(Pick it up!)
“Mama, you draw circle!”
(I already did, you cried that it was wrong. I am not falling for that again.)
“MAMA!!!”
(I am not responding to you until you ask nicely and quietly. Do not yell at me.)
“Mama throw garbage.”
(I’ve thrown several things in the garbage now, I’m pretty convinced you’re asking me to do it just to make me stop whatever else I am doing.)

I have taken to intentionally ignoring her, hiding in the kitchen cleaning (which, yes, needs to get done) just so that she will do something on her own. And she does! If I’m sitting with her she decides she can’t possibly draw well enough, I ought to do it for her. Yesterday while I was hiding out of sight she not only traced numbers she she also colored within the lines, something she’s never shown any inclination – much less ability – to do before.

There’s been talk about that article written about the mom on the iphone, and rebuttals, and blah blah I don’t pay much attention. But Julie wrote about it over at A Little Pregnant and I think it’s worth the read. “During interludes of benign neglect we’re simultaneously teaching our children something valuable: that other people’s desires are important, too; that you’re not always the focus of every eye, and you mustn’t expect to be; that when you need us we’ll be present, but not every second you merely want; that if Momma — shudder — looks away for a minute, you’ll still be fine.”

I’m home with my kids, doing craft projects with Kate and taking them to the Children’s Museum and the Library and playdates. They come grocery shopping with me and trips to Target where they learn all about the joy of shopping for useless but cute things. I take three billion photos of them. When I’m reading and posting online it’s usually about them – uploading photos, sharing stories (or rants) – simply because this is my life all day. Kate is fine if we are out, but she doesn’t handle boredom well. At home if I’m not Paying Attention To Her she is hanging off my arm whining, begging me to wattcchhh meeeeeee. The poor kiddo needs to learn how to occupy herself.

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Kate is a very outgoing, friendly child. When we are out she says hi to everyone we see. Now that she is learning new things she likes to walk up to people and say, “Look! Look at the fish/toy/shoes/whatever!” She also says helpful things like, “That’s Mama!” The other day at the Children’s Museum she kept trying to show an older boy the lion that she had made. (He was quite snotty about it, pushing her hand away and telling her to leave him alone. Nice.) Today we went to an Ecotarium, full of interesting exhibits about animals and weather and dinosaurs. At one point we came across another girl around 3 years old and Kate and her ran giggling into a “fort” together. I could hear them talking in quiet girl-voices. They both peeked their head out the door, just hanging out together. When they came out they went over to a microscope to explore and Kate pointed and said, “Your turn!”

Like I said, she’s just a friendly kid. She’s going to love preschool in the fall! I’m leaning towards putting her in the 3 days a week class (a 3-4 year old class), as opposed to the 2 days a week (a 3 year old class). The kid has an obsession with letters and numbers and words and she’s not lacking on social skills. I think she’ll do just fine.

Ember has hit a want-Mama phase. It’s sad to see her get all teary but it’s really sweet too. She can and does still play on her own in the house, but when we are out or if she is tired or feeling unwell she just doesn’t even want me to put her down. A few times in the past couple days she’s crawled after me in the house, crying big tears and wanting me to come rescue her. (Which I of course did, as soon as I finished feeding the cats/putting the laundry in/getting something for Kate.) Where before she would happily go to anyone and sit and chill now she’s looking at them like “Wait… I don’t know you.” Once she’s back in my arms she’s all smiles again.

She is fine with Denis, for the most part, except for that pesky boob thing: I have them, he doesn’t. She loves playing with daddy but if she’s really upset over something or if she’s tired then she wants milk and there is no way around that. She’s still absolutely refusing to take a bottle. I had the very good fortune to attend a friend’s birth last week and thankfully I was only gone for a few hours overnight because Ember woke up and was seriously freaking out at Denis. He ended up sitting on the recliner with her, watching TV and waiting for me to come home. There was simply going to be no sleeping until then. He tried a sippy cup again, which she does drink out of but mostly spits it all over and plays, but the bottle apparently just makes her really really angry. It is a fake boob and she does. not. like. it.

She also has a runny nose/cold thing going on the last few days while is making night time annoying. She can’t breathe too well so nursing is not very easy, which means she ends up asleep thrashing around crying until I pick her up and jiggle her out of it. I have to sleep right next to her, she seems to need my presence while she doesn’t feel good – and I can’t blame her for that.

A conversation I had with Denis the other day really made me realize just how differently he and I experience things, especially at night time. He was saying something about Ember’s sleep and how “We thought Kate was a bad sleeper, then we got Ember!” To him, listening to Ember waking up crying at night, and him being completely unable to put her to sleep no matter what he does, Ember is worse. I almost laughed out loud when he said that though, because wow is that not my experience at all. Ember sleeps 3 hour naps (and the first stretch at night) in her crib. Ember nurses and then I can just stand up and walk out of the room – without creeping, without waking her. And if Ember does happen to open her eyes in that really drowsy mostly-asleep state she just blinks at me and closes her eyes again. Yes Ember wakes Denis up more at night – because Kate would only sleep right up close to me, she didn’t need to cry to eat. Sometimes I can get Ember back to sleep simply by laying down close to her, singing, and kissing her on the head. There is a huge list of ways that Ember is so much easier! But, again, different perspectives…. Den can’t do a single damn thing for Ember, not yet. But that also doesn’t bother me too much, as I know how temporary this all is.

Kate is most definitely in that I do it myself phase. It’s both fun to watch her figure things out and so very annoying when you need to accomplish something in some form of reasonable time. She insisted on putting on her coat yesterday when we were leaving the house, but she could only get one arm in. I had to help her but as soon as I touch the coat she starts yelling at me and falling to the floor. I try as best I can to be patient and I always give her verbal warning – and ask, if possible – before doing something. “Can I get you some water in your orange cup? No, your pink cup, okay. Mama has to do it, I know that is upsetting. But I’ll get it for you in your pink cup. See? Water in your pink cup! Now go sit down and drink it.”

The hysterics every few minutes make my head hurt. Some days it feels like I’m walking on eggshells, never knowing what will cause the next freakout. The cat sat on her blanket; she dropped her toy; the song on her movie already started and she missed the first word. Even what seem like simple requests, like crackers… well I got the wrong crackers, or the wrong number of them, or one cracker has the corner broken. All of these are cause for “Kate sad! Kate crying!” or, worse, wordless whining sobs. She’s also started bargaining, like when I say pick out one book for bedtime she says, “Two books? Three books? Fooouuurrrr books??” And of course the now universal, “Finish this FIRST!” It doesn’t matter what I say, she interrupts me to say that she needs to do something else first. Eat lunch? “Finish puzzle first.” Get in car? “Watch Elmo first.” Even if the thing I was talking about is something she really wants to do… she’s trying to maintain control of the timeline.

Ember is full out crawling around the house, which is great for her and not so great for Kate. She’s now pulling up on things too, increasing her reach. It’s shocking when I glance over and see her standing there, holding onto a shelf or table or whatever. This has caused more than a few meltdowns from Kate and I have started frequently hearing things like, “No Ember!!!! That’s mine!!!” along with “Mama, move Ember!” One day I glanced over to see Kate dragging Ember across the floor by the feet, slow inch by inch away from the toys. Ember was giggling hysterically, thinking this was an awesome game, and when Kate let go Ember crawled straight back over to the toys. Kate dragged her across the floor again.

We’ve had some playdates with other kids and I’m yet again impressed with just how well Kate generally gets along with other kids. Yes there is some crying that so-and-so took the toy, but there’s a lot of giving a toy to someone else too. She also just loves running with other kids so if she sees anyone running around she’s taking off after them. It’s so funny how little kids group together and just run in circles giggling. And Ember is generally great because she’s easily occupied with some random object like a credit card. As long as I don’t walk away.

I really want to copy and paste all my FB status updates about the kids so I can keep them in perpetuity. I need to start working on that.

Mar 31
Kate: “Fork is sad….”
Den: “Why?”
Kate: “Fork want more eggs.”
*Den gives her more eggs*
Kate: “FORK HAPPY!”

Mar 29
Today Kate helped me crack open a boiled egg to make a sandwich. “Hatching a chick!” she said as she peeled the shell off. Well… sort of. We’re hatching an egg and eating it. (She was unphased.)

Mar 29
Ember’s been occupied for 15 minutes with a wipes bag.

Mar 29
Made Kate and myself a sandwich. By the time I had finished half of mine Kate was at my shoulder saying, “More egg sanwich!” Since it was something healthy I felt obligated to hand it over. Sure kid, eat my lunch. I’m not really hungry anyways. :/

Mar 29
Put Ember to bed, left to deal with Kate’s mess (she dumped over her cereal bowl). It was quiet so I peeked in the bedroom to make sure Ember was actually asleep. No. She was playing with her toes, grinning widely and kicking happily.

Mar 28
I don’t really mind if Kate doesn’t want to actually take a nap, but the kid really needs to sit down and be quiet for half an hour. I told her she can either lay quietly on the couch or take a nap in her room. She’s on the couch. Every 30 seconds she pops up and says something like, “Hungry again!” or “Move Merlin!” or “Kate wake up!” And I remind her, couch or bed. She lays back down. Until 30 seconds later….

Mar 26
I survived a trip to the mall with both girls while I shopped (and tried on) clothes. It was not my best mall trip. But they are both asleep so yay?

Mar 25
Well today Ember figured out her feet and started pulling to stand on everything. And then letting go. Because hey, that’s fun right? Wheeeeee.

Mar 25
Ember loves the bathroom… she loves throwing things in the tub. If I dare leave the door open I hear *crash crash crash* everything that was stacked neatly in the bathroom? In the tub.

Mar 24
She is falling asleep on daddy! That pretty much never happens.

Mar 24
Kate’s serenade to her daddy yesterday:
“Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to daddy,
Happy birthday to daddy.”
And then she gave him a bucket filled with her little toys as a present. She loves playing birthday so much I’m not sure that she really understood that it actually was his birthday yesterday, haha.

Mar 22
One child lines up little people in front of her new farm animals. The other child sits there with a bucket on her head.

Mar 21
Kate pulled Ember down the hall by her feet – Ember was sitting up and keeping her balance, thankfully. Kate said, “Ember go my room!” I thought “Awww, she’s bringing her sister in there to play! How sweet!”
Until I heard the door shut and Kate walks up to me. “Ember in time out!” Ummm. Okay, no, let’s go get your sister.

Mar 20
I hear fake crying for help. I open Kate’s door and she’s standing there with her hand on the knob. She runs over, picks up her trampoline, sits down, puts the trampoline on top of her leg, then says, “Mama, I stuck!”

Mar 20
Currently one kid is in her room having “quiet time” (as nap FAIL) – which is involving loud thumps and totally fake crying – and the other is throwing lego duplos around on the hardwood and I just noticed she has one leg completely out of her sleeper pajamas. o.O

Mar 19
Our Netflix instant queue: [movie] [documentary] [tv show] [tv show] [THREE BILLION KIDS SHOWS]

Mar 19
Ember… please don’t blow raspberries while I am feeding you pureed carrots. Thank you.

Mar 19
Told Kate it was time for her nap. She did not want to lay in her bed. I gave her the choice of bed or couch. She layed down on the couch with a pillow and blanket and started snoring a few minutes later, despite the fact that the TV was on and Ember is crawling around banging on toys right in front of her. 0.o

Mar 19
“Jo go in the box! Jo go in the box! Jo go in the box!” An early life lesson on how utterly pointless it is to try to get a cat to do what you want.

Mar 19
Toddler logic: If mama won’t rewind it back to the letter A (for the third time, mind) I will throw a sobbing fit and miss the *entire* song. Because that makes total sense.

Mar 18
Two children. Neither sleeping. One is stuffed up and would rather pull my hair than lay down, the other is just being a toddler. I need some chocolate, stat.

Mar 18
I attempted to put Kate in her bed at nap time – big fail. No sleeping. But then at 4pm she says “Kate tired. Nap couch.” She’s currently asleep on the couch with a movie on. Third day of this napping on the couch thing. Weird.

Mar 17
I’m being stalked by a sad, snotty, whining baby. Wherever I go she crawls along after.

Mar 17
Oh, also, Den said this morning when he got up, Kate was already up and watching TV. (She knows how to push the button to start a new show, but that’s about it.) I’m liking this getting out of her room thing…

Mar 17
Yes! Kate asked to go on the potty while wearing panties, no accidents!! She didn’t want to wear a diaper to bed last night either, but that’s still going to happen.

Mar 16
Kate is discovering that having a tea party with Ember is kind of like having a tea party with godzilla.

Mar 16
I have been instructed to throw the white crayon in the garbage because it is “broken.” I am trying not to laugh.

Mar 15
Tonight after we put Kate to bed, number of times she tried escaping her room: 0. Guess I need to limit the naps. (She did fall asleep today, but only for like half an hour before I woke her, since it was 5pm.)

Mar 15 [pic]
Look what she did today while I was intentionally not in the room! First she traced the 15, then colored the kite!!

Mar 15
Kate kept trying to step on me, which I don’t really enjoy when trying to watch a movie with her, so I told her to sit down or I’d get up and leave. She sat down on my lap facing me. Then she leaned in really close and whispered softly, “Your eyebrows,” and jabbed my eyebrow. Toddlers are weird.

Mar 15
Kate has started asking me to take off her pants and diaper so she can go to the bathroom. Not always, but sometimes.

Mar 15
My girls were so well behaved today! I love it when we’re all in good moods.

Mar 14
Kate has figured out how to open her bedroom door from the inside. (She has known how to get *into* rooms for a couple months, but getting out was a lot trickier.) We’re screwed.

Mar 14
Kate opened her bedroom door, stuck her head in and said, “Go away, giant! Go away!” Then came to tell us proudly that she told that giant to go away. Yeah. Bad giant.

Mar 14
Gave Kate a new bucket of lego duplos today, she sits on the floor and starts playing. Later I’m sitting on my computer and realize she’s running this way and that while holding the bucket in her hands. I can’t figure out what on earth she’s doing until I notice Ember crawling purposefully along behind her.

Mar 13
I told Kate we had a surprise for her. I started putting socks on her so I could take her downstairs to show her the surprise and she says, “Ohhh, my socks, oh wooowwwwww!” She thought that was it, haha!

Mar 13
Potty training: Kate now says “Mama stay here!!” and then closes the bathroom door in my face.

Mar 13
Laying down with a toddler who is not tired and does not want to take a nap is some form of full body contact sport.

Mar 11
We just heard Ember wake up (she’s talking to herself). Kate jumps to her feet and says, “Hear Ember! Go get Ember!” Then when I get up to go with her she pushed me back into my chair and said, “No, stay here!” and ran off. I wonder how long I need to wait. *snort*

Mar 11
Cracks me up that whenever I give Kate something unexpected – and it can be as simple as her water cup while she’s eating – she goes, “Whoa whoa wow!” in this impressed voice.

Mar 8
Well, she’s not shouting numbers. She was shouting the months of the year… at 10:30. So she’s up and getting it out of her system. Weird kid. Good thing she’s funny as hell.

Mar 8
I am very impressed that Kate just figured out that 1+1=2 and 2+2=4, using her fingers. I just really wish she hadn’t figured it out as I was tucking her into bed at bedtime.

Mar 8
Kate is stomping back and forth between her room and the living room, stacking all her books together on the couch. I asked her if she wants to read one with me and she said, “No! Make humongous first!” That’s her new thing… when I say we need to do A she says she must do B FIRST. Especially at bed time.

Mar 8
Give a child a sippy cup and they are occupied for half an hour! Of course she, the highchair and the floor are soaked, but she’s happy as can be!

Mar 8
Ember is sleeping and I am in a good mood so I ask Kate what she wants to do, whatever she wants. She points to the top shelf where things are strategically hidden and says “Playdoh!!” Well played, child.

Mar 8
Ember is becoming a really good argument for Kate picking up her toys.
“Pick up your cards, Kate.”
“No.”
“Pick them up or Ember will get them.”
*Ember crawls over slowly but surely*
“No!! My cards!!”
“Quick pick them up before Ember gets them!”
And Kate pics them up. ;)

Mar 7
Just realized my daughter is standing on her chair with her naked butt on the windowsill. Sorry neighbors. Potty training is fun for everyone!

Mar 7
Today Kate ran around playing “tag” with Ellie. Ember crawled around and discovered that cat food is yummy.

Mar 6
Super fun to look over and see the baby covered in chili. Especially when she’s in the living room and you didn’t give anyone any chili today. … Kate says “Uh oh!” and I look over and blink. Ember has something on her face and… what the heck?? Apparently, unbeknownst to me, Kate stored her left over bowl of chili in her kitchen yesterday after dinner. Ember finds it and thinks hey, awesome!

Mar 6
Ember likes to now get on hands and feet, butt in the air, very yoga-esque. Unfortunately she also tried to do it in the bath a few times. (But I was the one who panicked, not her… she thought it was funny to put her face in the water. WTF?)

Mar 6
This is what my morning has been like so far.
Kate: “Number four!” *excited* “Number four!” *sobbing* “Numbeerrrr fooourrrrrrr!!” *wailing*
I have absolutely zero idea. She’s bipolar and switches every 10 seconds.

Mar 5
Ember is 9 months old!! 18lb 5oz and 27 1/4 inch long (or something around that). Roughly average for height and weight. Perfectly healthy.

Mar 5
At the grocery store I bought a blueberry muffin and a water. My intention was to share it with Kate. Hahaha, I got one bite. I’m hungry. :/

Mar 4
Bath time tonight Ember was going *nuts* as usual… crawling around, hopping up and down on her bum, and splashing everywhere while panting with excitement. Then whoops she goes straight over backwards. I grabbed her and pulled her out right after she went under. She opens her mouth to dribble out water, splutters “Ah-CAH!” and then continues bouncing and splashing.

Mar 4
Today Ember shifted from “oh I really want that, I guess I’ll struggle to crawl 2 feet to get it” to “Hey, I can crawl around!! Wonder what I can get to next!” She also discovered that crawling is easier for her with one knee and one foot… kind of crab-walking.

Mar 3
It’s amazing to me how much taller and skinnier Kate looks now. The last couple months was apparently a big growth spurt!

Mar 2
She’s still talking away in her room. It’s 11:15. Go the **** to sleep, Kate!!!

Mar 1
Before I forget. Today when I woke Kate up from nap I said “Hi sweety pie!” while I layed down with her and rubbed her back. Ember had woken up too so I got up to get her. Kate goes running in there to give Ember her hug (Ember MUST get a hug when she wakes up or Kate loses it) and Kate says to her, “Hi sweetie pie!!” Haha, so sweet.

Mar 1
An hour after bedtime we have heard three large thumps and she’s currently saying, “Anna turtle, an planets, an.. an… an puppy…. all GOOONNNNEEEE!” She doesn’t sound upset, more like she’s reciting a shopping list of things that she can’t find in the dark.