Still sick. Sometimes I can breathe through one nostril just fine, and other times – like right now – I can’t breathe at all. And I despise breathing through my mouth. It creeps me out. I have no other symptoms, however…. just clogged sinuses. No cough, no aches. Just frequent sneezing (because this all tickles my nose!) and of course a really raw nose from blowing so very much. :(
I felt so sexy tonight, trying to sleep. I’m wearing socks (I tried that “put vaporub on your feet and then put socks on” thing – didn’t seem to help anything except my feet were warmer), underwear with a panty liner (just in case I sneeze really hard), no shirt because I have vaporub smeared all over my chest, chapstick all over my lips to help with the dryness from the mouth breathing, and some petroleum under my nose to help the soreness. Just lovely right? I am the picture of SEXY.
I do think it’s on it’s way out, though, which is a good thing. I’ve just tried to remain positive, knowing that my body will kick this virus out soon enough and this is all just a short-term issue. If I had to work full-time I’d be far more miserable, since sleep is kind of an on-again off-again thing. I gave up on the sleep idea for tonight, by the way. Highly overrated. So not working for me right now. As it is I do have to go pick up an order at 8am, but from there I can decide if I want to come back home to sleep or go to work and get it over with so I can come home early. It depends how I feel at the time.
I will say, however, that sleeping with your mouth open under blankets that are covered in dog fur is really not all that pleasant. I spent half my time plucking stray hairs off my [sticky from chapstick] lips. Blech.
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On a very happy note, I have been unisom-free for 3 days now, and no puking!! Because I wasn’t feeling sick while on the unisom I couldn’t really tell you when it went away. The last time I tried going off it was a failure, but it was SO brutal that I really do suspect that something else was going on at the time because of the other aches and pains I had. So who really knows when the actual morning sickness declined. Sometime after 20 weeks for sure. Maybe by 24 weeks, maybe not. But here I am, 27 weeks and feeling good!! Only had morning sickness through my first two trimesters. lol
Oh plus? I can drink orange juice now!! I started while I was away for Christmas, as my parents had some. It’s still not my favorite drink, but it’s definitely something that is good for me to consume, and it’s something I can have with my stupid iron pill. Cheer!
Sometimes I think that if I hadn’t had a really bad time with morning sickness that I’d be feeling really guilty for getting off easy. Sometimes I still think that. I feel so good! Even having a sinus thingie right now, the rest of me feels fine. I read of some of the other girls in my groups dealing with atrocious hip and pelvic pain or frequent kicks to the cervix and I am just so thankful. Hell I still don’t even wake up to pee. (The benefits of carrying high!) My fingers and feet aren’t swollen, my boobs aren’t all that sore, my hip pain is completely manageable just with a couple of pillows in bed. My face has completely cleared up. And my belly, it’s so round! It has this perfect round shape to it that I just adore.
Although that whole “my belly button isn’t sensitive at all!” thing? Today it was kind of feeling weird. So we’ll see what happens with that!
3 months left to go! Plenty of time for the aches and pains to hit. But still, 3 months seems so damn SHORT. Crap, we have so much to do.
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Someone on a forum became an aunt yesterday and she posted pics of the newborn (she was there for the birth). Newborn pics never really affected me much (except Kel’s Eric, I bawled like a baby when I saw his first pictures!), but boy does it hit home now. I look at that small, pink, naked little creature and I just want to cuddle it close. I imagine it being my Devin after going through labor with him. How amazing is it going to be? I’m sure I can’t even imagine. I am so looking forward to meeting him, to being his mommy. What an honor it will be.
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I am really good at making lists. I like making lists…. it gives me a sense of control and confidence about situations. I have a list or chart for everything: the baby’s layette (what we’ve bought/received so far), all the baby gear (all priced and color-coded according to what store it’s available at, categorized and prioritized), all the diaper supplies (what’s needed and how much it’s estimated to cost, then another sheet with everything I’ve purchased to date, how much I paid, the standard price, how much I saved, and how far off budget I was); lists and documents for what to bring to the hospital, who to invite to the baby shower, who to call/text/email when the baby’s born, what books I have yet to buy, my birth preferences, and of course a giant to-do list. That’s the biggie.
I posted that to-do list on one of my forums where we were all sharing “what we have left to do.” The other girls responded with, “Holy crap!” Apparently I reminded them of stuff they’d forgotten. A couple girls said they were using my list as a template. LOL! At first I was a little intimidated by how much is on my list, and shouldn’t it be shorter? But then I started crossing things off and I realized how much of a positive tool it can be. I love checking things off my to-do lists. Plus it shows me how much I’ve already accomplished, so I can look back and feel good about myself, instead of thinking that I haven’t gotten anything done. I’ve already made a pretty good dent on my January list. I’m feeling good.
One thing, however, is that I tend to get so caught up in the planning aspect of things (I love to plan!) and kind of forget about the present. My big belly and kicking child in-utero are a sharp reminder to me to not just focus on where I’m going, but where I am. I can plan plan plan how Devin’s room is going to look and how I’m going to decorate and which gear I’m going to get and how he’s going to look dressed in his cute clothes… but, ummm, in order to get there I still have to actually clean the house and put stuff together and get off my ass. I’m am giving myself a temporary “out” while I’m sick… though I still find myself doing weird things like rifling through the hall closet and moving things around without a real purpose in mind… just moving stuff and making it look tidier while I was chatting to Den yesterday morning. o.O Must be one of those nesting things. I am also keeping up with the kitchen… the dishes, the wiping-things-down and putting-things-away. Things that I tend to slip up on. I like having a clean kitchen.
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The kid is getting stronger. During my failed attempt at sleeping he was moving around a little – not a lot, but there was quite a bit of recurrent movement going on in my belly. (It’s funny how the movement shifts when I roll over.) A couple of times he kicked me pretty good though. It startles me when he does that, it shakes my whole belly and feels so weird inside. I think back to when all I could feel were tiny little flutters… how much it has changed!
He is certainly developing some sleeping/awake patterns, like the development notices say they will. He’s of course still very active in the evening, but he also tends to be awake in the early morning hours, as well… like right now.
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Oh it figures that I have to be up in half an hour and NOW I get tired!