Very quick post tonight while I wait for a file to send through email… I hope everyone in the U.S. had a good Thanksgiving. I know I’m totally beat… I ate far too much and felt like my belly was stretching out of my skin. But it was all so good, and I couldn’t turn down desert! Maybe I will end up putting on those 5lbs the nutritionist wanted to see. ;) (Doubt that.)

Biggest news of the evening… we arrived at noon to help prepare for the big meal, and BIL’s twin 7 year old daughters came running over to say hi. Den was saying to them, “We’re going to have a baby! Cool huh?” (since they only recently had been told about our pregnancy.) The girls responded with, “So is [SIL]!” Confusion ensued for a few seconds as they shoved an ultrasound photo in my hand and Den and I took a moment to realize that they weren’t just being silly.

So yeah. SIL is 13 weeks pregnant, due at the end of May. I’m still sorting through how I feel about it all. Happy – of course, yes, I am happy for them! This is not a total surprize, I knew they were going to be TTC soon. But to find out she’s 13 weeks along already?? That part has me thrown for a bit of a loop, I admit it. I had no clue. (She’s not showing at all. I had more of a belly at 6 weeks than she does at 13! Not that I’m complaining about that, I just find it funny!)

It’s always a bit of a stunner to me to be reminded how easily some people get pregnant you know? Like it seems like the most natural thing in the world. You decide you want a baby, you go off your pills, you have sex, you get pregnant. The concept seems so foreign to me, it really does. What does it feel like to just have it work out like that? Not that I begrudge people who are lucky! I can’t possibly hold it against people. But yeah, I do wonder sometimes why we got the short end of the stick, why it was so hard for us. Being pregnant doesn’t erase the hurt. It helps – oh HELL yeah. But things come up and you remember that you aren’t normal.

BUT I can’t sit here and have a pity party for myself. I’m a little stunned, but I really am thrilled for them. Both of us are. When she started talking about TTC (when I got pregnant is when she really got serious about the idea) I got really excited, because wouldn’t it be SO cool to have the kids close in age? These kids, these cousins, are going to be able to go through life together. My brother is super close to one of our cousins, always has been, so I know how beneficial it can be. So for that reason I’m really hoping she has a boy! What fun they would have.

Plus I’m thinking that it’ll be nice for me! To be able to hang out at SIL’s with the two babies, helping each other out… I think that’ll be really cool, and I think we’ll be able to bond over our shared experiences… and have another adult to talk to while the men work.

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Today Devin was kicking a little bit throughout the day here and there. When we got home after 11pm and I sat in bed with my laptop while Den watched TV… he threw a party in there. I put Den’s hand on my belly and had to “chase” the kicks for a while until he stopped moving. Den didn’t get any big, obvious kicks, but he did get to feel some slight movement! It felt to me like Devin was doing more of just nudging/pushing or moving around in there. Just little bumps. But Den thinks he did feel something a couple of times, though I know it was hard to tell. So that’s pretty cool!! I think Den was pretty happy, though I know he’d be happier if he felt something really obvious. We’ll keep trying to catch a big kick for him. Shouldn’t be much longer now, especially if we catch another really active period like tonight. Devin actually still hasn’t stopped, though he’s slowed down a lot.

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Okay that wasn’t as short as I intended… I need some flippin’ sleep!! Some people still have to go into work as usual!