Half Way There
Happy halfway mark to me! 20 weeks pregnant as of today. It’s been 18 weeks since my retrieval. It will be another 20-22 weeks until the baby is here. I am… in shock and awe… that I am at this point. I am blessed, truly blessed.
Devin is celebrating today. I can feel him, I think he’s throwing a party in there. Perhaps he’s invited friends? The funniest part is that his kicks now move. One minute they’re down low in my belly, next they’re higher and off to my right side. I have to “chase” him with my hand to feel it. :lol: It’s so awesome. I like to sit here and poke at my belly to see if I can’t get a response. Frequently I just zone out for half an hour at a time, hand on my belly, waiting for the little bumps against my hand. Once today among little bumps and pushes he really booted me – it made me laugh.
I have to change my point of view. What did I do today? It feels like “nothing”. I’ve just been laying here… I feel like I don’t even have the energy to pay attention to a TV show on DVR, I just zone out. But I didn’t do “nothing”! I’m growing a baby! Whew. I’m exhausted.
I can’t really understand the girls who say they wish they had their body back, they just want the baby out. I feel better than I have in years! I mean, beyond the nausea and the heartburn and little aches and pains – and I know those are going to get worse (minus the nausea, which I HOPE is going to get better… see, still trying to be optimistic here!). I suspect it’s going to feel very strange when Devin is on the outside, no longer a part of me. I’m getting so used to his daily movement. It’s going to be so weird to have that gone.
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Oh, by the way, I didn’t nap on the futon at all yesterday (since our mattress is finally dry)… and I slept on our mattress all night too. And look at that, no back pain today at all. So I am definitely placing full blame on the futon.
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PS – Weekly belly pic is up, for you obsessors. :)
Good deal on the back pain! I was really worried for you. Nothing drains your energy or enthusiasm as fast as having back pain.
I know what you mean about the kicks too… They are so odd now that they’ve gotten stronger. So cool though. :)
*laugh* You aren’t too the point where you want the baby out — or your body back — but you will get there. Wait 20 more weeks and then look back at this post…
I’m being induced on Monday and I can’t wait. Physically I can’t wait and I can’t wait to meet him.
Jamie – Oh, I’m pretty sure that will be true! LOL But there are girls who are as far along as me (or not even) saying it!!
Eh, you’re not that big just yet! You’re in the middle tri – the “honeymoon phase”. Enjoy it! I also loved being pg at that point. It was only after my ankles swelled, the heartburn was constant, I couldn’t get up a flight of steps without pausing and I couldn’t sleep for days at a time that I got to that “get this kid outta me” stage (about 38 weeks and beyond!).
Oh and just my two cents on the vaccines issues since my 2 month old just had three on Thursday, poor little mite. I tend to agree with you about the chicken pox since for the most part it is not life threatening but as far as the other vaccines are concerned, I will state for the record (and since you blog publicly you open yourself up to comments like this) that parents that “choose” not to vaccinate against conditions like polio, rubella and small pox are ignorant beyond belief. Vaccines have saved millions of lives in the 20th century and this is extensively documented. Just because a bunch of nuts put together a nice website with lots of false data does not change the most salient facts. These people should go to the third world where children still suffer from polio and see what the world would really look like if we all decided to stop vaccinating our children.
Sandy – Oh I’m enjoying it!! :) I hope this phase lasts as long as possible, LOL.
Yes, I do blog publically and I do invite debate… I just always request that it remains polite, that is all.
I will not argue the benefit of vaccines in general, as my previous posts have stated, it’s obvious how much good they have done in the world. The question now however is whether or not the risk of getting the vaccine is lower than the risk of getting the almost-eradicated disease in THIS day and age, in THIS country. Some parents choose not to vaccinate because THEIR child had a horrifically bad reaction to a vaccine that put their child at risk…. and to them, in their situation, the risk of the vaccine outweighs the risk of getting, say, diptheria. (The old DTP vaccine was notorious for bad reactions, some very serious. The new DTaP has a much better track record.) That is not the case for everyone, of course. You cannot say that for someone who has firsthand experience like that that they are making a choice based on ignorance. They are doing what’s best for their child.
I won’t even get into the reasons others decline to vaccinate at all – since that is not my choice, I cannot argue the point appropriately, though I’ve read enough to give me pause. But, I respect their right to make their own choices. Whether or not I think someone is making the “wrong” choice – for example, I am getting to be a little bit of a militant about breastfeeding – I will not go up to someone who is formula feeding and criticise them. I do not know their history, I do not know their reasons, and I do not believe in demeaning people for their choices. I may talk positively about breastfeeding in a polite way, talk about my own experiences, and try to educate those who seem confused about their choices – but I will not criticise. The last thing mothers need is to be criticised for their parenting choices. I do not believe ANYONE would make a choice to hurt their child (except some mentally ill people, that is). You may think that vaccination is different than the breastfeeding debate, but I see them as choices we must make as parents, hot topics where there is a lot of information, a lot of MIS-information, out there. We all must muddle through.
I love hearing about the little kicks. I am so happy for you and your bean! I love that you are enjoying it. As it should be. I miss you!
FWIW, I cried after having my first one because he wasn’t inside anymore. At both of my showers, people said, “Aren’t you ready for him to get here?!?” and I was like, “Meh, I like being pregnant.” I mean, pregnancy has its pros and cons, but I was one of those freaks who liked it right up until the end. So hold out hope that you can be a freak too! :lol: