Just to put this out there, I’m not really posting all that stuff about vaccinating for anyone else’s benefit. This blog serves two purposes to me: it lets me share with my friends (and the blog’o’sphere) and keep everyone in the loop; it also is my journal and my “notebook” as it were. This is where I stash all my links and interesting articles and stuff so I can find them later. (You might be surprized at how often I use my archives. It’s practically a daily thing. That’s also why I have such long, weird categorizations.) I don’t want anyone to think that I’m trying to change anyone else’s mind about vaccinations. I know some people might find things useful, and that’s great. I’m certainly not out to start a debate or anything. I fully support whatever choices my friends make on the vaccination issue, I think it’s something you have to decide for yourself. It’s not up to me to judge what someone else does. Though, as much as I do appreciate input from friends, my decision will be based on published studies and books and other such sources. ;)

Okay, other stuff. :)

I thought I had posted last week about not being able to feel my uterus. I guess I never did. Well anyways, girls in one of my pregnancy groups were talking about being able to feel their uterus when they layed down on their back. The first few times I tried to feel it I managed to make myself nauseated, but felt nothing. 2 weeks ago I couldn’t really feel anything… sometimes I thought I could feel the top of something just above my pelvic bone, but it was pretty low and hard to tell. Well yesterday just for shits and giggles I felt around a little and was surprized. Now I’m still not sure what I’m feeling, but there’s a “ball” above my pelvis that I can feel quite clearly now (when I’m laying down). That got me a little excited.

Friends are also talking about feeling baby flutters, and me of course, I still feel nothing at all. Sometimes I sit here and think about it and wonder what it will feel like. I wonder if I’ll be shocked when I do feel something, or if it’ll happen without me really noticing what it is until later.

Sometimes I still feel a little detached still. It’s going to be a lot different when I can feel movement in my belly, because sometimes I still forget that something’s in there. I’m very proud of my little belly and I’m just so happy to be pregnant, but it’s like it slips my mind that pregnant means there’s a little baby growing in my belly, you know?

As I wrote two weeks ago, I am still sleeping through the night (and sometimes far into the day) without waking up to pee. My body is doing this thing where, as I’m sitting here typing while I wind down before sleep, I have to go pee about three hundred times (slight exaggeration). I am very appreciative of my body’s attempt to empty my bladder fully before actual sleep.

Now that I think about it, I haven’t had much stretching pains lately. Everything’s been feeling pretty good, other than me still having to be very very careful with the types of food I eat and the amount I eat. (If I eat too much – surprize!) I have got it back under control again, I’m pretty sure this past weekend was a reaction to the junk food over-eating at the halloween party we went to. Very bad thing, apparently. But yesterday I had a taco salad, and today I had a ham sandwich, and I was fine – both foods that I ate on saturday and threw back up. So it’s not the food itself. (ETA – I take back what I said about the ham sandwich. Delayed reaction.)

My boobs are sore though. Still growing. It really annoys me how, if I don’t sit completely straight-backed (which I rarely do) my boobs sit on my chest. Just a little bit, but that fold in the skin is driving me nuts. My nipples are very sensitive today, I noticed, as well. Still fitting in my C-cup bras, though. Which is good, because my no-underwire Hanes bra is so comfortable. I wish I could find that model online so I could order another one… but of course, the Hanes website can’t find that model number. I looked up bras elsewhere, and this one on Motherwear looks super comfortable. (Very similar to my Hanes bra, except the Hanes isn’t padded, and isn’t a nursing bra.) I’m ever so tempted to buy it, but I think I’ll hold off until my boobs outgrow my current ones, as I know they are going to do. This one from Motherhood looks good too.

it’s 2am and I’m wide awake. Dang. I have such a problem with this. My mind gets way overactive at night, and then consequently I sleep in too much the next day to make up for it, which means the next night I’m not tired… gaaahhhh. Do you think it’s possible to have a biological clock that is totally out of whack? For 25 years I’ve had to fight to get my body to sleep at night, and every time I stop forcing it it slides right back to me sleeping all day.