And the fear creeps in…
This morning I got out of bed, sat at my computer… then *urrrppp* went running to the bathroom and yelled at Den to get out, get out! Yet again, no puking… just major tummy troubles.
Later Den says to me, “Is this your version of morning sickness?” I hope not. Ugh.
In other news… I’m starting to get flat out terrified about the ultrasound. It’s been moved from August 13th to August 16th due to clinic scheduling issues and those 3 days seem like a lifetime. I’m just so scared we’re going to get there and something will be wrong… that the heart won’t be beating.
In a way I’m glad my stomach is in major upheaval – it at least lets me know that something is going on in there.
Den’s going to be gone all next week and I’m going to have to find ways to distract myself. Books, I guess. And shopping.
I’m just scared. Please let everything be okay. Let the ultrasound show a beautiful little blob with a beating heart. Then maybe I will be able to breathe again.
I remember when I had 2 weeks to go until my u/s and it was the WORST 2ww of my life. They are agonizing.
But, I promise you, it is well worth the wait to see that tiny flicker of life.
Good luck on your upcoming ultrasound. The stories of eating and stomach upheaval are funny, although I’m sure you don’t quite think they are when they are happening.
Gee, this sure sounds a lot like what I was just telling my husband. That first u/s is such a moment of truth. I am terrified, too.
I should be trying to comfort you, though, rather than make you even more scared. I really hope you get a HB.
It’s all very exciting and just another hurdle to climb! You have a great outlook though…
I’m sorry you don’t feel good…but so happy to hear you’re “sick”!!!
:)