Tomorrow
2:00am, so it’s technically Wednesday. Tomorrow I test. I’m nervous. I mean I haven’t been until now, because I knew I’d be getting negatives… but tomorrow could actually tell something. I just don’t want to be upset if it’s a negative.
All possible “symptoms” have disappeared. Tummy is fine. Head is fine. Hand is better… well, mostly. My mood is all fucked up, but that can have many different causes… but I am very crabby and that could be a sign. Maybe. Of course I won’t know until afterwards. One thing I did notice today and yesterday, though, was that I’m having a hard time reading the screen while playing DAoC. Yeah, my font size is turned down pretty small (as Den pointed out), but it’s been that way for two years and I’ve never had problems with it before. I could just have a cold or hell, just be having trouble focussing (concentrating, that is). I dunno.
I really want this test to be positive. I am probably completely out of my mind for feeling that way, but I really do.
not out of your mind at ALL – I was like that the first month too – and really upset when it was negative
i expected mine to be negative too, I didn’t feel any different, I was just wondering where the heck my period was. however, if it had been negative I would have been sad I think. it’s so weird, how you can be upset over something that you lost…but you technically didn’t have it? If that makes sense.
Yeah…. it’s all the mindset. I’ve worked myself up into a baby fever, so it will be a disappointment if it’s not true. :( But we’ll just keep trying, of course.