Last night we finally “did the deed.” I probably wouldn’t have initiated anything (and Den hasn’t been initiating anything since the surgery, he knows I wasn’t in the mood so just let me tell him when I was “better”) if it hadn’t been for all the CM telling me I was ready to ovulate. But, after a pause while we were getting started, we decided to use lube. I must say, it is so nice to have a sex life without really worrying about oh, we shouldn’t use that, it’s bad for sperm, or, I should be on the bottom since it’s the best position. Who cares! Do what feels best. Such a big relief! And so much more FUN when you’re not worrying about things. I only worried for a brief moment, then told myself I’ve been doing everything “right” for 15+ cycles and it’s gotten us absolutely nowhere, so screw it! It’s not like we have NO chance. Long as the sperm are in there… well… roll the dice. Don’t expect to win, but you can roll at least.

It was a good way to end the day.