Fuzzy Happy Thoughts and Worries
The best part about being on birth control? Having a drink while watching TV. Okay, it’s not as good as anything in the restaurant, but it’s something, and it’s giving me that pleasant warm feeling.
I’m watching Men Having Babies on Discovery Health and I just have such a smile on my face watching their ultrasound appointments. After I’m not sure how many IVF tries, with their last try they gambled and put three embryos in – and got pregnant with a singleton. Watching how happy they all are is so wonderful! (Gay male couple with a lesbian surrogate and her partner.) I’m just so thankful that they have medical options to achieve pregnancy through surrogacy. (well I’m glad we have it too, but it’s rather difficult to get pregnant when you’re gay!) What a blessing, all of it. What a wonderful thing that we have that option (if you can afford it).
I’ve already been starting to worry and re-think my decision to transfer only one blast. I know it’s only going to get worse. I think I’m more afraid of a negative than of twins. And that might be what it comes down to. Den and I were debating finances in the truck – would it be more expensive to have twins, or to pay for all the meds for a second IVF round? I immediately said “Twins! Twins are expensive!” But he pointed out that we were planning on having two kids anyhow. Granted hand-me-downs and things (though there’s less of that if you figure a boy and a girl of different ages, less that can be handed down – or at least less that you want to). And with IVF, whatever money we spend on it, each try, is money out of our pocket that can’t go towards our future baby/ies. So I don’t know. I just don’t know. I’ll put off the decision until we’re closer to having to make it.
I’m really starting to feel impatient though. I want to get this started. Definitely April instead of May. I can’t wait until May. lol Well we’ll see what the doctor says on Friday – there might be a scheduling issue that I don’t yet know of, but if I were given my own choice I’ll start the IVF cycle with my April period.
Woo this drink is hitting me. One drink and I feel fuzzy, lol. That’s so pathetic. :) (But to be fair, I did put far too much vodka in it!)
Good for you for having a cocktail! I had a little wine myself this avoiding cycle and it felt great to let go for a little bit.
I think that a second IVF would be more expensive than having twins, personally. You don’t have to necessarily buy two of EVERYTHING. Yeah, okay, so 2 carseats and a double stroller but they can sleep in the same crib and wear the same clothes (if the same sex). Even if you had a boy and a girl, you could buy mainly neutral colors with some pink and blue mixed in. I think your family would be so happy, they would definitely help you out on that registry!
I have been looking on Craig’s List and you can find lots of used baby stuff still in great condition for cheap. Maybe you could try that! Ebay is great too for stuff like crib bedding – you can save tons. Wow, the research I’ve done amazes me considering I’m not even pregnant yet…
I’m sure the finances will work out either way. Things have a way of just coming together. I’m so excited for your April IVF – maybe you can get a New Years baby! What a wonderful start to 2008 :)
Hahah, yeah, I’ve done a ton of research too. And I agree… the finances will work out one way or the other, I really believe that. Just when Den starts screetching about affording another IVF cycle… he gets irritating. :P I prefer to just think that the money will come from SOMEWHERE, even if we have to “steal” it from our other savings accounts (travel, home remodelling). I don’t care. Den says if the first IVF fails he wants to wait a YEAR to save up and try again. :( That makes me panicky. And may influence my decision in the end.