I realized something yesterday that could take a little bit of the pressure off me: frozen embryos. I mean I knew about it, knew people did frozen egg transfers, but it never really clicked in what that really means for me. And that is: much less meds. You still need estrogen and progesterone, but no lupron, no stims. That should cut down on the cost considerably.

Obviously this doesn’t affect our first IVF cycle. And there are no guarantees in this world – I could end up stimming horribly and not have any to freeze. But if we do that could mean that a second IVF cycle could be doable for us! (Because insurance pays for two IVF cycles, just not the meds – and I’m guessing not the cryopreservation either.)

It’s funny how none of it may come into play at all – but, again, it’s another safety net. That IVF#1 won’t be our last play… that even if that fails, we still have another try at it before really being SOL.

I mentioned in a previous post that the nurse I talked to said she generally quotes people $5000 per IVF cycle for the meds. At one point this weekend after I relayed that information to Den he told me that if that’s the case for us he doesn’t want to do it for another year. And I know he’s thinking solely from a financial standpoint, and I know he’s probably being completely logical about it, but the idea of waiting another year just really freaked me out. Another year? What? How in hell am I going to survive that, month after month of just enough hope to knock me down again? So I’m just really believing – believing – that our meds will be much less than that price. Yes they will. Think positive here. (I’m new at it.)