…. I have spotting. :( Perhaps getting a beta tomorrow will no longer be a problem.

Edit: My head is a roiling mass right now. I want to post a long, frustrated, angry, upset entry, but it’s so muddled right now it wouldn’t make any sense and I’d probably look back tomorrow and think, “WTF was I thinking??” But I’m just sitting here clicking the same forums again and again to check for updates and letting my head try to muddle through it. This roller-coaster ride SUCKS, it absolutely SUCKS. I am completely at the mercy of my body and whatever spirits are out there putting me through this and I hate the feeling of helplessness more than anything in the world.