Okay, I am going crazy today… utterly and totally crazy. I’ve been checking my cervix, which, up until this point, has been very high and firm and closed – but today it is softer and lower. It’s upsetting me, even though it’s kind of a stupid thing to get upset about. (Cervix position isn’t exactly reliable.) I still don’t feel like AF is near… though I am feeling pretty *yuck* about food. I go to bed starving, I wake up starving, I eat… and then uggghhh can’t eat, feels yuck. Arg!

So tomorrow morning, if there’s no AF, I’m calling the doctor for a blood test. I can’t tell you how many ways I’m hoping that me being as late as I am means a very good thing… but I’m still terrified that it’ll come back negative. If I’m not pregnant this is the WORST joke my body has EVER played on me. I will be very upset with it.

I’ve spoken to a few more people who said that clomid did NOT extend their LP at all. They think I’m pregnant and are telling me to go to the doctor, get a bloodtest! Okay okay, I will. Tomorrow.

My insides are a mass of knots right now. I’m really not very good at waiting. Kel, I really don’t know how you did it. It certainly seems a much more laid-back approach to just not start wondering until your period is a week late, but god, I can’t do that.