Driving to and from my meeting tonight I could feel something weird in my stomach. Not my usual “heavy” pre-AF feeling, but like little uncomfortable twinges. I kept “checking in” with it to see if it had moved, gotten worse, changed, etc. I finally told Den that “I feel weird.” I kept telling myself that it was probably not a good sign – but part of me whispered that cramping could be good, too.

So I checked in the bathroom. I wanted so much to be able to post about cramping and no spotting. But… not to be. Tinge of pink in my CM. Just the way it always starts. And I can definitely say that the cramping is getting heavier. I had just totally forgotten that today was 13dpo – the evening I usually get AF. I thought it was a day earlier for some reason.

Would it be silly to say I felt a kind of peace as I stared at the spot of pink? Just a feeling of… well, at least there’s no more guessing.