I do a lot of writing about what the girls are doing, how they behave, what they are learning. I realized that I do very little writing about what is going on in the world around us. I want to get back to writing for me – my thoughts, my life, my opinions. I feel a little broken, though. I’ve become a lot more sensitive in the past few years, a lot less able to take a stand and hold an opinion. I don’t know why that is – I thought it would go the other way, but I’ve lost some confidence and conviction. It’s really bothering me right now and I need to find a way to get it back. I am unsure what I am going to do with this blog, either have everything here together or move the kids’ updates elsewhere. I just don’t know.

The other thing I thought about is how neat it would be for the girls to one day be able to look back at our life in the bigger picture, to see history unfold through our family’s eyes. Of course maybe they won’t care, but I always err on the side of writing everything down. I feel like I’m a hoarder of memories. I relentlessly toss stuff from my house but I keep every picture and note and journal. I know I won’t likely ever need the info, and the most the girls will do is compare their children to their own development, but I just feel like I need to have it just in case.