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Pictures

February 22, 2010 — 5:01 am

I just loaded in the DVD of the ultrasound to watch to myself, and I started giggling and smiling. I think one of my favorite parts of the video isn’t even the 3D section, but getting to have a permanent record of a 2D ultrasound in video! I just love watching them scan through her body, watching her wiggle and kick and move. I can read 2D better than 3D anyways, I think. Don’t get me wrong, I do love having the 3D pictures! But to me the snapshots in 3D would have been enough, but I could sit and watch her in black and white all day long. It is amazing.

I think during the actual ultrasound I was still wound pretty tight and didn’t really get to relax and enjoy it as much as I would have liked. In a way it’s like watching a race in the olympics; I find I enjoy it more the second time after I know what the result was, the first time I’m too anxious about what is going to happen. So to me this is really cool. I wonder if Den will think the same.

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I was asked about names – I’m surprized no one has asked before this. :) The thing is, we have two perfect girls names picked out. We love them both and if we have another girl someday we will use the second one. We had only one boy name picked out, so if this had turned out to be a boy it was set in stone. Alas with a girl it is not so certain. The girls names are Katherine Elizabeth and Cailet Amber. We love both for different reasons. We are leaning more towards Katherine, and even started calling her that, but then as this girl’s personality comes out I started feeling a lot of anxiety and wondering if maybe it’s not the right name – she seems so spunky. So I’m frozen. I’m waiting for something to jump out at me and make one feel completely right, but unfortunately that may not happen until she’s born. So until I figure it out she’s just baby girl. It’s driving me crazy, too. I hate not having a name.

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I carefully put together a sig today – a small scrapbook-style graphic to be used on one of my forums. In it I used my favorite of baby girl’s 3D pictures and I also put Devin’s in there, too, since he is always included in some way. After I finished, when I stopped looking at it in terms of color matching and balanced design, when I really looked at it and took it in, I realized: baby girl looks so much like Devin. Same nose. I’ve thought about what she will look like – hell, I’ve thought about what he would look like. And suddenly there she is, her fuzzy little 3D womb picture, pointing out in startling clarity how much my children look alike, at least from their first photo.

I can’t wait to meet her on the outside, to take real pictures, to take in her eyes and nose and mouth… and to get a glimpse of what my little boy might have looked like alive.

15 responses to “Pictures”

  1. Lyanna says:

    I’m still rooting for Cailet Amber. If only because the spunky little girl you are carrying around seems to share that trait with the Cailet I know from the books ;)

    That, and I just love love love the name. But hey, don’t mind me haha.

  2. jen says:

    Ok – this is TOTALLY going to sound all new agey and stuffage – but I used this site to really firm up my name choice for Evie.

    http://www.kabalarians.com

  3. mrs.spit says:

    Katherine Hepburn was one of the spunkiest women I know. Also, one of the most amazing.

  4. Sarah says:

    Don’t forget Kate from the Taming of the Shrew was pretty feisty too!

  5. CeCe says:

    I loved reading that part about you giggling and smiling at the ultrasound DVD. :)

    Both are beautiful names! I have not heard Cailet before. If you can’t decide on one, perhaps you can wait to meet her? Although I understand the need to feel prepared.

  6. Michelle says:

    At 23w I’m just a few behind you. We, too, are having a little girl. We’re going with Katherine Sophia. We’ve been calling her Katie since we found out at 15w she is a she. 8-)

    Congratulations on your baby girl and I’m thrilled you were able to include her extended family in the recent ultrasound! How exciting!

  7. Courtney says:

    Hello… long-time lurking, popping out of the wood work to say:

    The only Katherine Elizabeth I know is one spunky, willful little chick.

    Of course, she thinks her middle name is Goofball.

  8. Kate says:

    My name is Katherine, so I’m partial to that name. I’m pretty spunky, so I think it’s perfect :D

  9. jessica paez says:

    i noticed the nose too! wanted to say something, but just in case you wouldn’t agree i bit my tongue. :D i love both the names!

  10. Amanda says:

    I love the name Katherine! Beautiful choice!

  11. j says:

    Love, love the name Katherine Elizabeth.

    Oh…and Jacquelyn is a good name, just sayin. ;)

  12. Lisa says:

    Still following your journey, with so much hope and joy for you. I love Cailet. What a unique yet classic name.
    Can’t wait to meet her. Virtually :)

  13. Virginia says:

    Perhaps she’ll make the decision for you when she’s born. :) Either of the names are lovely!

  14. Shannon says:

    She is gorgeous! You can never go wrong with a classic name like Katherine…and the name offers great nicknames such as Kate and Katie. However, I went with the road less traveled with my little ones and am satisfied with my choices. I went to Highschool with a Kaley, which could be a nickname for Cailet spelled Cailie, which I also find very pretty. It is different, yet not so different as to just sound strange to people. My daughter’s name is Emeline (pronounced line not lene at the end). It is an old name popular in the 1890’s, yet it sounds something like the names Emma, Emily and Madeline, which are all more common names. It is different but not weird. I think Cailet has that same quality. Amber is also a more known name that could be used if she wanted in the future. I love both names. It’s so exciting to make such a decision. It is such fun thinking of baby girl names!
    I am so happy for you and your husband…as you said in another recent post–I know you entire family is just over the moon about her. How special that some family got to share in the ultrasound. Blessings to you and to your sweet baby girl :).

  15. Both names are gorgeous!! Good luck in your decision making. Mike and I actually did not name our second girl til we all got in our hospital room. We had so many coincidences that morning and we were already *thinking* about Brooke Marie after his dad Brooks and my middle name Marie. Then in my pre op room my nurse came in and said “Hi, I’m your nurse Brooke” and then Mike and I started laughing and decided to see her and then decide on a name for sure…I felt awful waiting that long to name her since we had picked Lindsay’s name LONG before we had her!