Forgive me for being a complete and utter dork, but I am so excited! We didn’t take home much leftovers yesterday, and then I spent today thinking damnit, I definitely didn’t eat enough of that good food. So I stopped on the way home to buy some ingredients and then Den and I made for dinner stuffing (stovetop), butternut squash, mashed potatos, corn, and rolls. Not only did we actually manage to cook all of that together, at the same time, but it was so good!! Best mashed potatos ever. The squash was wicked good too. So we had a very yummy second-thanksgiving, just the two of us, watching TV and telling the dogs “touch this and die!” We just don’t make real meals very often, and I always feel so domestic and accomplished when we do. We even cleaned up the kitchen afterward, like real adults.

Thanksgiving yesterday was very good, very positive. I just felt happy, you know? And how fucking awesome is it to just feel HAPPY? I’m glad I got a baby-check right before Thanksgiving, reassuring me that all is well. It was good food, good company, and I just felt peaceful. So so very thankful for this little one.

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I called the Midwife group that saw me for Devin’s pregnancy and booked an appointment for Dec 8. I forgot to even ask about seeing a particular Midwife (I would like to see either the one whom I had the appointment with the day we found out Devin had died, or the one who delivered him - both of whom were FANTASTIC and just stand out in my memory as wonderful people). When I got home I looked up my notes to see if I’ve seen this particular Midwife before, and I had; I had written down, “Really liked her.” Dec 8 is a Tuesday, which means yay, I won’t have to take any time off for it. I really thought about this a lot the last few days, and now that I’ve made the choice to switch I’m feeling very relieved.

At my last appointment I booked my next ultrasound, my Level II full anatomy scan, for December 28 when I will be almost 19 weeks. Not quite in time for Christmas, but hopefully it will be a very good Christmas present nonetheless. It’s only a month away! I cannot wait to find out who is in there… and, more importantly, check that everything is as it should be and baby is healthy. (Yes, readers, rest assured that we WILL be finding out the sex of this baby!)

My bloat belly is in recent weeks converting over to an actual baby belly. My uterus is pushing up and out, and now even first thing in the morning my lower belly pooches out. Of course, as soon as I eat my upper belly joins it. But it seems like every day now I catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror and startle at what I see. It is fantastic. I feel like I’m getting back bits and pieces of the good parts of pregnancy. I’m also feeling far far less sick than I was a few weeks ago, and that is helping my happy mood.

It is so good to be here.