Well today is being depressing. With the temp drop it’s about 99% sure my period is coming today or tomorrow, and that’s not a happy thought. I’ve been feeling very very light cramps across my lower midsection today, a few twinges in my belly button. All not good signs. :( It could be taken as a good sign… if my temp hadn’t dropped.

I was really starting to think we might have pulled it off this month. *sigh* Tomorrow Den will call the doctor’s office (if they’re open) to make an appointment for his SA. I’m starting to think I should get my CD3 and CD21 bloodwork done (checking progesterone), to make sure my hormones are all in balance.

This is all just so frustrating… it makes you feel so helpless. I guess that’s why it hurts so much when people sound so flippant about it… or make it sound like it’s your fault. “You’re just trying so hard.” So… it’s MY fault we haven’t gotten pregnant yet? Like it’s just so easy. Well apparently… it’s not so easy for us. Something isn’t functioning correctly here. And those people who make those comments… have absolutely NO idea how upsetting all this is. No idea at all. How can I not stress about something that we both want so badly? I’ve been able to just ignore the comments so far, but I think in another month or two I may reach the point of just bursting into tears when someone brings it up. Maybe then they’ll get the idea.