And also, the birth control pill freaking hates me. Or my body hates it.

I ended up at the doctor’s office last week. I was spending a quiet Monday at home, writing and working and feeling very lovely in the quietness of my house while the husband is at work. Unfortunately as the morning progressed my belly started hurting. It wouldn’t have bothered me, except for how similar it felt to the ectopic. Low, below my belly button. I was just sitting there, thinking fuck. What the hell is this?. So I ended up going in for a quick scan, mind racing ahead to cysts and canceled cycles. Thankfully this time I was wrong. There was nothing wrong with my ovaries or tubes or uterus… everything looked perfectly normal. Just some “bubbles” in my intestines which were probably causing the pain and pressure. Lovely. A trip in just to be told it’s gas.

That started soon after I started the pill, and unfortunately I have felt bloated and bleh ever since. The last two days I have had breakthrough bleeding – yay for panty liners (can’t I EVER get away from the damn things?!). Plus – and I can’t say for certain that the pill is to blame for this one – I am emotional and sensitive and not a very good roommate for the dear hubby.

I know the bloating and rawwrrr-factor is only going to get worse with lupron and stims, but ugh. I hate the damn pill.