I started spotting. Went to the bathroom… I could just feel that something was different. I sat there for a few seconds just staring at the wall, sighed. This is all so frustrating. We’re doing everything right, timing it right.

Oh my. I also just ate a cheeseburger that Den brought home for me… I went to the bathroom, then crawled into bed… and immediately started getting some small cramps and stomach rumbles. Period definitely almost here.

I haven’t actually cried over this TTC thing yet, though every month I just lay here in bed and feel heavy of heart and full of disappointment. I feel like I want to cry, but don’t. I guess I haven’t reached that point yet, and that’s good.

Den will be going for his SA (sperm analysis) next month sometime, we’ve agreed. And I have an appointment with my new ob/gyn, though that won’t really be to talk about why I haven’t conceived yet (I’m sure he won’t want to discuss anything yet until we’ve been trying for a while longer – they recommend 6-12 months before doing anything). I just wish I knew if it was simply bad luck or if there’s something preventing it from happening, either with me or with him. Once we do the SA, if it’s all normal, I’ll feel a lot better about just letting nature take its course for a while yet.