Well I’m really not sure what to think about this monitoring appointment. My poor ovaries. My right has – wait for it – 33 total follicles. Yikes. I have a whole host of small ones that joined the rest. My left – the squished one – has 18 total. Of all of those in both there are 10 (6 right, 4 left) that measure between 13 and 15mm. So at least that is looking good.

I just feel too many similarities to my first cycle. In my mind lots of eggs equals bad eggs. How true that will end up being, I don’t know. They’ve dropped my dose again, and I’m wondering if next time they’ll go straight to a low low dose.

Oh, and with all those follicles I suspect my E2 will sky high. I’m probably going to get some mild OHSS again.

I guess I’m just not happy about how this is going. My fucking ovaries… Can’t mature the damn eggs, but hey, let’s explode with them so she can at least suffer. If they were all good I wouldn’t have an issue with this… But they won’t be. And my worry is that all the small ones will make it harder on the big ones to get what they need.

Lining looks great at 11mm. Nurse is thinking a thursday retrieval, but if they keep dropping me and maybe coasting me it might be later. I think by the time retrieval comes I am REALLY going to want all them out. I’m already feeling a little uncomfortable (though the drinks and food last night is making it much worse… I feel quite sick today.)