Relaxing Doesn't Make Babies

All before you blink

October 3, 2008 — 12:42 am

Randomly I’ll come across of photos of me pregnant. Not the typical ones I see all the time, but like on Facebook there are some photos of me from my baby shower.

At first I react with surprize and confusion. Did I really look like that? Did I really have that big belly that I envy my co-worker so much for?

Soon as the surprize ebbs I feel sad it’s gone. I look with a heavy heart, remembering days past… trying to pull up the memories of how it actually felt, and feeling disappointed that they are fuzzier now, harder to remember.

But then… then I smile. I had it once – it really is possible. And I will get to experience it all again.

And I feel hope.

5 responses to “All before you blink”

  1. Mrs.Spit says:

    Oh Nat, you and Dev looked so beautiful. Hoping. . .

  2. Marie says:

    Hope is the best thing we can possess in our lives. I’m glad you still have hope Nat. Lots of love!

  3. Carrie says:

    I love this picture of you. I can’t wait to see you knocked up again! ;)

    As a side note, I wonder why I kept my stupid sunglasses on my head. Ai yi yi.