Wanting a Baby
I think maybe this waiting to get pregnant was a good thing – it’s getting me more mentally prepared.
I never expected to feel like this. I always thought that when we started TTC it would be because “it was time” and Den wanted to and I would aquiesce. I never thought I would be the instigator, I would be the one waiting and hoping.
At first though it was about the goal – it became my pet project, my obsession. Getting my period at the end of the month wasn’t all that disappointing. I wanted to get pregnant, but picturing myself with a baby was just weird. But now… now I’m watching A Baby Story in the afternoons and feeling strongly about it. Now the pregnancy has become only a part of it, and I want a baby. I’ve started picturing myself as a mother, and thinking I might not do such a bad job at it.
Just wait til you get pregnant. Man, then it gets even more pronounced. Baby. Mine. GIMME! I’m not ready to be a mom on the one hand, but I sure am ready to try and to learn how. Making all these preparations and plans is making me so edgy and at the same time, so -ready-. I guess our bodies know what they’re doing by giving us 9 months to psych up, even if it does seem like waaaay too long.
lol Yes, I think I’ll need the full 9+ months to get used to the idea. Although, when you’ve been trying for a few months… well. I still want to be pregnant for a while, to experience it, enjoy it. I’m still terrified of the little thing coming out.
Yeah … I thought I’d want to experience and “enjoy” pregnancy too … But then, the more people I talk to, the more I come to realize I’m definitely having a worse time of things than a lot of women :p
LOL It sure sounds like it to me. I’m sure if you stopped feeling sick every time you breahted you’d be able to enjoy it a bit more!
I don’t feel sick -every- time I breathe… After all, I breathe when I sleep ;) I guess the fact that since I was a kid, being too hungry would make me sick really doesn’t help matters. I’m sure you’ll have a much better time of it!
I’m not so certain. You know me and my stomach problems. :/
well, i wanted it to hurry up and get here too. but at about 7 months i started to worry about being a good mom and all the stuff that goes with it and then at 9 months i was like get this over with!!! weird how you will go back and forth and then when you see the baby for the first time all the doubt melts away. it is replaced by other stuff, unfortunately. but it’s all stuff you can handle :)