Yesterday our camcorder arrived! I was shocked, since I only just ordered the thing. I am enamored with it. It is so tiny and cute… and it takes great video. We’ve only gotten to use it indoors at night (which is VERY poor lighting) and it’s really impressed me so far! This was a big purchase for us, but one that we’ve been planning on for years now – it was a “must have before a baby comes” item. So now we’re all set for Devin’s arrival, right? (Okay, NOT!)

I played wth the camcorder and read the manual to figure out the controls (not very difficult), and then when Devin had his nightly belly-party I was ready for him. I caught some video of him moving around! It’s certainly not the most active he’s ever been, maybe it doesn’t look like much, but for right now I’m just thrilled to have ANY of it on camera! Today I’ll try to figure out how to download video to from the camera to my computer and upload it somewhere. (I’m really not a fan of YouTube… I hate how public it is. I use Photobucket for my photos, but the video quality isn’t really the best… I could try that, though.)

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So apparently my pregnancy hormones have not made me just burst out crying at things (sometimes I feel tempted to, but I don’t). Instead they’ve made me angrier. The very first video Den took with our new camcorder was just a random video of the dogs, and me unloading the dishwasher and cooking dinner. However I now can’t delete the thing, because while he was filming I was having one of my snotty little fits. As embarassing as it is to watch, it’s also hilarious (after the fact). And sad as it sounds, I kind of want to preserve that memory for all time. “Look, here’s how mommy was a bitch during pregnancy! Isn’t that funny?” (It’s a good thing I can laugh at myself.)

I’ve just been losing my temper really randomly. Small, stupid things too… like tripping over the cat (for the 300th time). I try to take a deep breath and let it go, but sometimes I just get so angry… which starts a cascade. “Effing cats, they’re always in my way! And look at that fur I just stepped on!! Where’s my shopvac??? And while you’re at it, remove that crap from the bedroom, it’s been sitting there for a week!!! YOU NEVER DO WHAT I ASK YOU TO DO AND MY HOUSE IS A DISASTER!!!” Meanwhile husband is hiding in his office thinking, “Oh jeez, not again…”

Though really, compared to what happens when I forget to take my meds? This is child’s play. We both have experience dealing with my total emotional breakdowns, so these little flare-ups are just hiccups. It’s annoying and kind of funny, and poor Den takes the brunt of it. But it’s not all that bad (yet?). And hey, it gives us something to laugh about later.

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I’ve seen mention of how carpal tunnel syndrome can be a problem in pregnancy. Honestly I have no clue if that’s what’s bothering me or if it’s simple blood flow issues or something. Den doesn’t think it’s CTS because my wrists don’t hurt when I type (thank goodness). But at night… see, I’ve always slept with my hands folded under my chin like a cat… bent at the wrists. It’s just what I do without thinking. Well now if I do that my hands immediately go numb. Also with the elevation thing, and the anything-resting-on-my-arm thing. I have to watch with my legs too… if one leg is on another, the bottom foot tends to go slowly numb.

I guess it doesn’t really matter what causes it, other than “it’s pregnancy-related,” since the important part is: if it hurts, don’t do that. Pregnancy is all about learning different ways of doing the usual things.

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Yesterday I had the most fabulous sleep ever. I roused a bit when Den went to work, then I just fell back asleep. And I slept beautifully until I woke up at noon. No waking up sweating, no bad dreams, no aching, nothing. I woke up feeling completely refreshed. It. Was. Fantastic. I want more days like that.

Unfortunately miracles do not happen two days in a row, and with the plows that keep going by to scrape up the snow/ice and the dog freaking out each time (he’s a German Shepherd, but seriously, is he not used to this by now?! I do not need to be “warned” about the stupid plow!!) I got broken sleep at best. Sigh. I liked feeling awake. It was nice. Now I just squint at the clock and wonder when’s the soonest I can take a nap without feeling guilty. Now? How about now?

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I am currently trying to decide what to do about nursing wear. I have two nursing bras that I really hate to wear. One of them might be okay when my milk comes in, but it’s a 36D (I am currently a 38C). I have an extender for it, so it’s all up to whether or not my boobs fill it out, which STILL has not happened yet. My boobs, despite the stretch marks, have made very little progress this pregnancy.

So I’m thinking, for right now, to wait on ordering a “good” nursing bra (this one comes to mind) and just get some nursing camis and such while my boobs figure things out. I love Gilligan & O’Malley stuff, so I’m thinking this nursing cami and this sports bra. I figure one of each, for the hospital, and then I can order more if I like them.

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I am out of cake, and I am very sad about it. The junkfood cravings… oh it’s BAD. I’m going to turn into a major blimp if I don’t manage to find a way to stop this. The bad part is that all the yummy healthy food I’ve been eating lately suddenly tastes like crap to me. My tastebuds are all screwed up. All I want is chocolate and sweets. :(