I had a little “nap” this afternoon (I wasn’t supposed to, but I fell asleep and didn’t wake up until I was supposed to be out the door), and when I woke up I felt “heavy” down below… might just be paranoia. But it still feels a little heavy. I don’t even know how to explain it. But I think AF is on her way.
On the other hand, I haven’t completely lost hope yet. If AF doesn’t arrive by sunday I’ll test again and see.
More weirdness. I feel very, very strange. I still feel that funny pressured/heavy feeling in my abdomen. I feel like AF should be here any second, but there’s nothing. Yesterday I got more little bit of spotting, but that’s it again. This is very, very strange. This morning I even checked up by the cervix, I feel wet (which is also weird), but no spotting, no blood at all.
Some of the weirdness I can chaulk up to being my first normal cycle off the pill in quite some time. But I haven’t been on the pill exclusively, and I never get anything like this. I may get a very very short warning – like, I wake up feeling like AF will be here any second, I go running to the bathroom, and there it is. Either that or it just shows up when I’m sleeping or sometimes during the day, with no warning at all. So two days of spotting and feeling funny?? This is just weird.
Yesterday I had myself completely convinced this cycle was over. I wasn’t too sad about it – like Den said, this was our first month, there’s only a 20% chance of conceiving, and I was really looking forward to eating a good pink steak next week on our dinner out (I’m craving Chucks steak tips something fierce). But now I’m not so sure. I’m not going to test again, though, just wait. AF should arrive today or tomorrow at the latest. If it doesn’t, then something’s definitely up and I’ll test sunday…
Oh, and: I found out that the egg nog at the Big Y is indeed pasteurized. :D Woo hoo! Egg nog yummies.
Well I shouldn’t have, but I took another HPT. Another negative. :( Course that still isn’t definitive, I didn’t hold my pee for all that long (2 hours, maybe), and it could still be too early.
Tonight we went out to a party, so I made sure to bring along a pad because I figured that if my period was going to show, it would inevitably do it in the middle of a party. You know what? It didn’t. Not only that, but I didn’t spot at all today. You’d think if the spotting was related to AF that it would spot for a day or two and work up to full-blown AF. But instead I spotted slightly for two days, then stopped? Hrm. Odd. My body is trying to convince me that I’m pregnant.
I didn’t eat all yesterday morning – I woke up at 2, had a shower, read stuff online, then ran errands. At the party I ate a ton, though – lasagna, crackers and cheese, strawberries, cake. When we came home Den fell asleep. I can’t sleep, too much going through my head – but I’m suddenly starving. At 2am. This is not entirely unusual – given my odd sleeping and eating patterns – but I’m still noting it down just in case it becomes relevant.
Well I was able to fall back asleep. It wasn’t a great sleep – I had to wake up to kick Zeeke off the bed, and it wasn’t as long as I would have liked. But I took my temp when I woke up… it dropped a lot. :( I have all my fingers and toes crossed that that temp is simply not reliable and that AF won’t show up. Please please.
When I was up this morning I ate a piece of toast (or, most of one since Zeeke ate the last bite), and then I ate one of those little pizza meal things (yes, I buy kids school snacks for myself). Went back to bed. Woke up recently, and my stomach is absolutely growling again. Graagghhh.
Okay, so it’s been longer than I thought since I ate last. But I often don’t eat all that much and it doesn’t usually bother me. Especially around my period. (The first two days of my period I rarely eat anything, too queasy.) Of course I don’t have my period yet.
No period still. o.O Tomorrow’s temp will tell me something, I guess, and I’ll be taking another HPT – since Sunday is when I’m officially late, LOL. Using the sacred Equates this time – they have a really good reputation. Of course if AF shows up, well, at least I can get on with the next cycle. Or rather, Christmas shopping…
